Big hugs chick and sending you loads of baby dust for this cycle

Oh man Im slack!

I do solomnly sp? swear, to do my very best to get in here each day!

And Im usually one for moaning about other people not logging in. It must have shown I logged in the other day coz its my homepage, so every time I open explorer, there you all are!

Yeah a bit bummed about the whole bfn, really thought I had it this time, but I suppose, there is always next time (keeps repeating to self, ad nauseum....) Haven't seen hide not hair of ole' AF, and actually getting pretty desperate now! Just want my old predictable cycle back, so we can get to baby making.

Im still staying at my sisters, so the dial up net is being shared between 3laptop users, plus another person that uses it too. so time to log on can be scarse. Plus you know sometimes you aren't really in the mood to share bad news when you were so sure your next post would be to tell all of you its a bfp.

But never mind, chin up and all that, sister has a new kitty so thats been fun preening over it. Plus we have 3 babies in the family at the moment, so its fun visiting them, if not a little painful that its not me and my baby they are visiting instead of the other way round. Plus I had a well meaning but oh so inappropriate comment from a family member, to the tune of 'oh man it must be hard coming here and seeing us with our two boys (2.5yrs, and a newborn) knowing you won't ever have them, I mean, the chances are pretty damn slim aren't they?' Farking WHAT! I mean, excuse me! There are right and wrong things you can say to an infertile, and that is most certainly NOT one of them. Man, I could have freakin damaged her when she said it. I mean, think it, but dont say it you harsh cruel little....

To make matters worse said person is now in a nut farm for a few days as she won't eat, but still insists on B/Fing her baby. Riiiiight.... Anywho, unacceptable comments aside...

Feeling pretty good on the whole, as long as I don't get too many more of those type of comments. Will take my meds when I get them (sending DF back to Dunners for a day or two to pick up some medical supplies and essentials) and will take them, get old AF showing her face, and get back on that predictable path of BDing with nothing to show for it.

The only thing making it hard now is visiting all the family and friends, and getting the 'So, when are you and Anthony going to start a family?' and feeling like saying, 'we're furking trying, if you've got any suggestions, Im all ears'

Ah well, we'll get there in the end, just more time to hone in the parenting and TOLERANCE skills.

My love to all, you all keep me sane, shudder to think where I'd be without OB.

Babydust to all, and hello to all the LimboLanders, I shall see you soon!

Hi Ladies,

Nope, no such luck, another BFN. Sigh, I think I now officially have unruly, backwards, irregular, terribly absent cycles.

But, although I should be feeling pretty crap about it, Im actually ok. Feeling a bit better than I was, and have extended our stay with my sister in ChCh to nearly a month. So thats fun. And it looks like we may have found our new house in ChCh when we move back up, so thats cool.

So, thatnks ladies for taking such an interest, and for being so supportive, really does mean alot, and really helps more than you will ever know.

Sorry I was so slack about getting back with the results, by now I'd say that you all know how hopeless I am about getting online to write.

So, many thanks, will be back on when old AF finally shows her head.

Same here.

Goodluck Bumblefoot!! @ week late AF, good sign! Even faint lines good sign!  I had super faint lines to start with, had to turn them in the light to see

Dear god, have just had a read of my post, and I will put my slack spelling/grammar down to recovering from my general anastetic (sp) and my week up north. Oh and I also forgot to add that I have been SOOOOO tired all week! Catching nana naps where I could even if I got a full nights sleep. What a nana...

Cheers chickies, just a waiting game now. SIGH...

Man am I a meanie!

SORRY LADIES! I had THE WORST internet connection in chch, and a demanding family to boot (don't go there...)

WELL, on to the is she or isnt she. I had tobe back in Dunedin for a Gastroscopy today, and when they asked the Q:could you be pg? Of course I had to say, I most certainly could be, and most certainly feel like it. So the anaestatist (of all people, rather good looking to boot!) did a poas test.

AND...

He said that no wonder I haven't been having much luch with my 'faintly there' tests, with the surgery I have had on my bladder and the implant I have, it is likely that what it produces either 'masks' or neutralises the HCG all together, so you always get a BFN even if it should be a BFP...

Soooo, he left it to us as to whether to procede with the scope (had to have a GA, so meh) and we talked it out, and decided to go ahead.

I have had the cruddiest week feeling wise, have had cramps, sore boobs, NAUSEA (she shouts at DF's screen) , and not to mention the afore mentioned moodyness and the crying at anything even remotely sad/cute (like the piggies on the bank ads...go figure, Im pretty special all right!)

So, the long and the short of it is that without a blood test we will prob never know until AF arrives, or of course I start getting larger. So of course I am off to the GP this week, if I can get in that is.

So yeah, had another weak as line on Monday, and I do apologise for being so slack in replying, but have been hanging on to this 'could be pg' thing all week, and feels like the less people I say it too, the less people will tell me its a BFN.

So thats my life story, and I will be up front and present for the rest of the week. PROMISE!

Oh, and ALL of my pants are suddenly not fitting, have been getting around all week with my buttons open and zips at half mast, weird huh...

Hugs to all, as with the bundles of babydust to all who yearn for that BFP.

I'll tell you something for free, if I am pg, then I have all this babydust floating around to thank, we might have to market it!

Thanks for the interest/caring girls, really means a lot to check in here and see so many posts! Did anyone get any house work done this week? Fold a set of sheets, check on Bumblefoot, pair up the socks, check on....ad nauseum!

Ignore the ticker, all it does now is give you an idea of how late old AF is. Sigh... Be assured, that the minute I know, as will you.

Thank you guys, bit of a nail biter I must admit! All packed for my 7.45am departure tomorrow. Gona suck having to be without my power chair in ChCh, have to take my manual chair, so will con my Dad to push me around I guess! Nah, I should just push thru the fatigue and get back to being fit. A few years ago I was training for the Paralympics, and so was VERY fit. Like going to the gym for 2hrs every week day. Would like to get back to that actually, although maybe not every day...

Ah well, I'll be up all night doing house work, anyone wanting to chat, be my guest...

Not really looking forward to the 5hr bus ride, but I suppose I have my laptop to keep me occupied. I've got the entire series of The League of Gentlemen, its a comedy series from Britain, its so funny that I nearly peed myself from laughing! (although cripples are known for their weak bladders! LOL)

Alrighty then, off to do some more packing, babydust to everyone as always, fungers crossed for a BFP tomorrow, but I'm not holding my breath.

Oh and there is a pretty good chance that by Monday morning I will be going mad with wanting to know, so MIGHT use fmu and test before I get on the bus to ChCh.

Nope, will hold off til Monday I think, dunno if I really have the cahones to test again before then.

I'm kinda kicking myslef atm, I never thought to take a pic, and I've thrown the test strip out! It was driving me nuts just staring at me, and I kept looking at it. Was driving me spare, so I binned it.

Nausea is settling down but seem to only be able to stomach fairly plain foods. Still more tired than I can ever remember. Been blobbing on the couch all day. DF serving as my personal hand maid atm, bless him. Hormones seem a little better tonight, don't have that urge to wrap my hands around DF's throat every 20mins! Think the sleep has done me good.

Thanks all for the support, you will be among the first to know the result on Monday. Be the PM. Perhaps after dinner.

Babydust to all who wishes for it, and fingers crossed for the weekend. No AF signs yet, so just wait and see I guess.

You know, I can't remember what brand it was! I had a couple internet ones left over so it was prob one of those. My gf got me them from the lady on TM that sells them. Pretty sure it had a blue handle on the strip, that much I know.

Stink about the first response ones, that was what I used when I got pg the first time (resulted in m/c unfortunately) and again it was almost as faint as this one here staring at me (don't worry, its in a clear snap-lock bag) but was later confirmed by a blood test at 5days late for AF. And about 8 other first response poas's (only to m/c at 7w 5d) Have to say the line never got very dark with those ones either, but Mum had the same prob with us kids, with me she never got a positive poas, and didn't get a positive blood test until 8w 3d pg! Thats some insanely low HCG. 

Never thought you were raining on my parade luv, it's good to know all the facts that I can, never know when you will need some info. Thank you for your reply, def food for thought. In future will def steer clear of the first response tests.

Don't think I will test again until Monday, that way hopefully if it is a wee bean in there the HCG levels will have risen, and Mum can be my impartial eye. I can wait that long strangely, usually I'm the most trigger happy tester there is. I have an uncharacteristic sense of calm and serenity atm, so we shall see how long that lasts. Prob until my next mood-swing! Oh poor DF! If it ain't pg, then I've got some wicked PMS! And its gona be a MASSIVE AF! Pains the lot.

I would say this is a BFN, but there is that little glimmer. So I am going to assume it is a BFN, until proven otherwise. That way it will be easier.

Ta again, will be back later, after 4pm I'd say. Have a lovely day ladies!