Hi Ladies,

Thanks for all your support. I must say this community is the most suppotive and kindest Ive found.

I have a car which we are trying to sell because we need money for our wedding. Hoping to buy a bomb to get from a-b in until we can afford a better vehicle.

I did have a license but having great trouble getting it converted to a nz one since my origninal australian license got stolen. Long story but they wont give me a new one cos I dont have original. Ridiculous even after giving them documnets from OZ stating I had a license etc etc.

I think I will just drive in the meantime. have to start all over in Nz. (makes me mad as I had full for 5 yrs in oz)

I have  a fear of driving and lost my confidence so I dont drive unless i really have to. Like tomorrow when i go to my walking group I have to drive to get to meeting place. More scary having Jaxon in the car. Would hate to have  aprang ad injure him. I konw I shouldnt think that way but I just do.

Defence driving course could be a good idea to get my confidence back. thanks ladies. It just depends when I can do it.

No dont have any time to myself but I havnt wanted to be apart from my lil man Jaxon either. Im not looking forward to ourwedding day in March where Jaxon is staying with mum the night of the wedding. Gunna miss him.

Ummm what else...

I feel much better today and Glenn and I talked and all cool. I myself just wantto learn to be a bit more independent and will take some of your advice and see hw I go.

Thanks again

Kell

I'm the really independent type, which is a sanity-saver since my hubby seems to always be at work or working elsewhere, and there have been many times I have felt like a single parent who had a visitor at the dinner table each night (hubby - there just for as long as it took to throw a meal back, and off again when I'm still half-way through eating mine!).  But even being independent and needing my 'space' I still found/find this really difficult.  Heck, we marry them because we like being around them, so of course we'll miss them when we're hardly spending any time together!  So please don't be hard on yourself for missing your DH and feeling a bit lost without him. 

I'm jumping on the 'join a coffee group' bandwagon here, 'cause there's nothing quite like getting OUT and hanging with other women in a similar life phase - they just get it.  If you ring your local Plunket, they should be able to tell you if there's a coffee group starting up in your area.  Apparently the ones here meet at the local Plunket rooms for the first few sessions, and are facilitated by a Plunket worker before being handed to the group to decide what they'll do, so that takes care of the awkward 'don't yet know any of you' thing.   And a defensive driving course sounds great - feeling OK about driving really heaps you escape when you feel housebound, and makes appointments much less stressful. 

Hey ladies, Have tried to call some friends but noone is home and Im just having a horrid afternoon. I need some advice and this is theonly place I could think of.

Nothing to do with babies as Jaxon is just fine and such a lil darling. its me that is the problem.

I just cant have  a life unless it revolves around Glenn. and Jaxon of course, hehe.

 He is such a great man and is the type of guy that will not go out and drink with the boys etc and feels that we can do the socail thing as  afamily especially now we have a wee boy etc. Hes not that type of guy in which i think is great.

Hes fantastic. I sometimes wonder how he puts up with me. We dont argue or anything I just express my thoughts over txting which is probably a good thing. The poo man just listens. He never raises his voice.

 I was brought up in a family that was like that. Mum and dad hardly went out without each other. They did the couple thing.

Anyway getting to the point...

I feel so bad cos I got really angry with him via txt (thank goodness) and pissed off cos Glenn had to go to Hamilton this morning (his only day off) at 8am for a band practice and said he will be back by 3. He hasnt even left yet and still playing. Its not his fault but I get so angry becasue there is always an excuse. (most of the time not helped) Not his fault but he gets the blame. We had plans to go see friends this afternoon but now it will have to be cancelled.

I just get so bored and dont like to do things without him. I dont really drive too often as I hate it .. so cant really go anywhere.  Im starting up my walking again next week with the girls if it all works out and coffee morning so that will keep me busy during the week. got a wedding to plan and thats getting stressful as we still have lots to do and money to find.

 He works full time and every day will be at least an hour late. gets annoying but used to it. I just ge so sick of his unreliablity. How can I keep myself calm and not want to spend so much tim with him. Mind you Sunday is the only day we do get to spend together as a family.

Im all over the place here. sorry. The main point Im getting at is How can I stop being so angry especially when it is not his fault. I feel so mad and bad for being mad at him.

 I wonder sometimes if i need to seek some counselling to help me get a life of my own. (not revolving it around Glenn all the time) Im very dependant on him and want to change that.