Termination for medical reasons

Yep same here BC!! Chocolate, biscuits, chips, baked goods, lasanga etc etc flowers galore. I biffed the flowers on rubbish day in Tuesday as I was sick of the sight of them. I took a bunch of the freshest ones to Micah on Tuesday.

Your doing well. Any form of exercise would be more than what I've done for a very long time.
I'm glad your not beating yourself up hun. Go easy on yourself.
I've just booked in with a psychologist on Wednesday arvo.

Heaven forbid that thought indeed BC!!!

I'm a mess this morning. Must be pretty bad since DH just packed up himself & DS to go out of the house for a while. As they were heading out the door DH said "you're staying here?...you can come if you want to. You didn't look in the mood to go out"
There's no way I wanted to go out but the fact DH assumed and never asked really upset me. DH hasn't done anything wrong it's my head that's such a mess.
Early this morning DS gave me lovely cuddles which made me cry more so both boys cuddled me. DS was patting me saying "mummy sad" cue more water works. Then DH said mummy's ok now.
No I'm not & I hate that I'm not. Poor DH I don't think he knows what to do and I can't tell him because I don't know.
Rant over 😞

Aww hugs RD. Sorry I've been out all day at netball. I'm actually glad you had a good cry today and let yourself be. I think it's much healthier to let it out.

No need to apologise BC. Yesteday was a bad day. Not as emotional today. Very short fuse though.
Had an awful dream that Micah's results came back and there was a lot more wrong with her than we thought. Hope we hear something soon.
BC is your appointment coming up?

Where do you have to travel from BC? That sure is a full on day hun. What will you do with Paige's ashes?

The crystal ball would be great wouldn't it!!

That's a massive mission!!
What ever you decide will be the right thing by Paige. Xo

My mum has been sending me some really hardcore texts. She's just expressing her thoughts and feelings about Micah but man its so hard to deal with. I'm struggling enough without hearing "I can't believe how much Micah has broken my heart" and "I'm so sad today"
Her feelings are valid but I don't need to try and process her grief as well as my own.
Not sure how to approach that one.

Rd I know loosing Meika really hit my Mum hard she was depressed for a good couple of years but it didn't help that my sister lost her son 6 months later at the same stage! But I too couldn't deal with her grief honey and you need to tell her that - tell her your barely holding it together yourself at the moment!

Bc I have Meika's ashes with me in a little box that looks like a child's toy - I love knowing she's with us all the time!

I would imagine it would be super hard to do honey - and such a lovely feeling having her with you all the time xx

I have seen some jewellery options too that can contain ashes.l
Anthea has sent me pics of what she has done for Meika and it's lovely :-)

The mum factor is a really hard one. Gosh Anthea, a quadruple blow for your mum that year, that's super tough.

DH says I need to say something, he even offered to do it! I'm just not sure. I'm worried I'll make things worse for mum. I fully acknowledge she's grieving for Micah and for me. My heads just not in a space to process it. Hopefully My appointment on Wednesday will help.

Generally yesterday was a good day in the scheme of things. Feeling a bit wobbly this morning with hubby back at work, but DS is here to keep me distracted and we've got gym class again this morning. MW is visiting at some point as well to check in on me.

I've been sleeping quite heavily but waking so so tired. Two weeks today since Micah was born, feels like it's been two months like you BC....