Felling so much stress and pain

I hate 2020 because it is the most problematic and terrible year in recent years. I always try to be positive, but I just can't mentally stand all this sh*t. Recently, my neighbor nearly committed suicide. He lost his job and had huge debts. The reason was total isolation. Over time, many of my friends were demoralized. I stopped sleeping at night because of nightmares and anxiety. I hope that it will end soon because it is difficult to sustain morally. The only thing that helps me calm down is Kratom. I learned about this plant from my son and u can buy kratom at gnc if it's hard for you!