TTC for 12 months +

So much going on! I probably won't be able to address it all - but

BC: I am sorry you are going through all of this uncertainty. I will really be crossing everything that those levels of yours rise up and up and that come Saturday you can get some good news You seem to be dealing with it well and that is a blessing - don't beat yourself up for testing, we all want to gain some form of control back over our own circumstances and I think that early testing is something many of us do because of that. It's the same with the Googling. When I started out TTC I wanted to know as LITTLE as possible about everything - I wanted to just take a natural approach like everyone else got to (even though I knew already that I had PCOS). The further along the line we have gotten, the more I have started Googling because in a way, the more informed I am about it, the more I can convert emotion into facts and so in some small way, the disappointments hurt less. It's again about control, wanting to be informed so you feel more in control. Ugh. Silly infertility. Keep your head up And here is a big fat hug from one DH-less lady to another! I had a wee cry for the first time on the weekend when talking to my DH, I could see him on the screen and hear him but I just REALLY wanted a hug! Screen kisses just don't cut it sometime, and the thought of at least another 2 months of being alone SUCKS!

Cridic I am really sorry to hear of your loss. I hope that come May FA will be able to help move you along the path again with some answers.

Storm - crossing my fingers for you too, let us know how your testing goes.

Mrs Impatient - look at that ticker go! Workouts and somersaults aye! Very cool.

Auntie - so pleased to hear all is not lost for you, and my fingers will ALSO be crossed for you on Thursday! (I am running out of fingers...might have to move to toes...) I really hope it all works out.

AFM, talked to my regular nurses today and today is officially day one so I am starting my manufactured cycle again from today and my RE will be back on Thursday and she will write up my new plan then. If my last cycle was anything to go by, I'm probably looking at my next FET attempt around May 10. If that doesn't work then I am for sure packing up shop and heading over to Italy, even if it is just for a few months and then back to try another one, but I am just really hoping I won't need to...... in humorous news (I always have some) I cut my trip up home short to come back for my acupuncture appointment tomorrow. Which, once I got back home, I realised was actually today. Doh. Stupid Easter confusing all the days up.....really really hoping they take pity on me from my BFN and don't make me pay for the missed appointment!!!

Shimma you never fail to make me smile with your little side stories. Hope they don't charge you! So glad you've decided to give it another shot. You're right about googling things. Once I did that it calmed me down a bit lol. I'm still not that hopeful but until I know otherwise I'll keep trucking on. And thanks for the virtual hug like I said really missing a hug from my dh right now. He's a really blokey bloke so doesn't particularly do affection but does play the game when I need him too haha. Lucky we've got this place to keep us semi sane huh.

Ok some other ppl regale us with what's going on in life?
Ht how you doing hun? Big weekend birthday wise and a not so great ttc milestone too. Are you feeling ok?

Hugs HT it's hard to keep trucking on relentlessly. Good on you for taking some time out. Great to hear your boys had a good weekend too.

Auntie how are you doing hun?
Storm did you test yet?
Just had the most wicked cramping out so I presume it's not working out as it should dang it. Still have the sore boobs etc. thankfully my friend is coming to stay for a couple nights so that will be a nice distraction.
Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Hugs Storm. You have been through so much. I don't know if I could do it over and over.
Haven't got any tests left and my town is too small to buy any discreetly. Too late for any online as they won't arrive until next week.
Just have to wait it out. Always with the flipping waiting 😱

Ladies, thank you for your thoughts. It's nice to have somewhere to talk about this stuff. Sometimes the hubby just doesn't understand. :-)

Good luck for everyone for wherever you are in your cycles.

So sorry Storm.

A.girl, thanks. I am wayyyyyy less mental today. Even had some of blokes at work today ask me how I was because I looked sad yesterday. Awwwww. I did even cry in front of them either (that was reserved for my boss, she's awesome).
Bleeding tailed off by yesterday afternoon and no more. Which either means a) I miscarried a bunch of cells that had barely anytime to throw off HCG or b) it was implantation bleeding and will get a positive tomorrow. Talk about a fricken emotional rollercoaster.

Have myself a signature for you mushroom, I agree it helps but it took me soooo long to find the damn thing!

BC, happy googling. I do the opposite of what I tell my patients and google merrily.

Shimma, hope it feels heaps better to have made a decision. Thank you for cheering us all up with your mad tales.

I have my bt tomorrow, haven't decided if I will POAS tomorrow morning or not, think I'm too scared...

Oh and hugs and love to you all xxxx

Hey everyone,

I've been trying to keep up, but been feeling a little hectic/muddled.

Shimma, good luck for your next cycle. It's always hard when life is complicated by DH being somewhere else. I hope everything works out how you'd like it to :)

BC, Auntie, Storm, GBH xx

Mushroom, sounds positive, hope you get the temp rise!!

HT, I'm feeling you on the food front, but you're right, sometimes you need it to keep you sane. Good luck for this cycle

AFM, the last couple weeks have been a little crazy. Positive note though, last cycle was 28 days, and AF is about to arrive tomorrow, which puts me at 27 days. Which is actually pretty impressive, I've not had two "normal" length cycles in a row since coming off the pill. Hopefully I will have a surgery date in the next 4 weeks or so.

Lots of love and baby dust to all x

Beaker great news about your cycles starting to be 'normal' long may it last.

Epic - you're right. At least I know my body tried to be pregnant even if for a couple days. Shows it's possible.

Auntie good luck for your testing today. Crossing everything for you.

Hey BG lovely to 'see' you. How you getting on?