TTC for 12 months +

Wow, 100% fertilisation! That's fantastic news Star!

Star that's fantastic!!! Transfer one day after me

It really is a cracker of a few months, with everything that's going on in here

HT how you doing hun?xx

Aw thanks HT - nice to see you are still popping in here hope everything is going well with you!

Thanks too Star - I've just missed a call from the clinic telling me my transfer has been brought forward 2 hours - so at 10.45 now eeeek

Hi Girls! Roubix, thanks for asking after me :-) I've been hanging low as I've needed a bit of a break to keep me sane. Of course I can't resist stalking though! It's so great to hear all the positive stuff coming out of this forum lately. My goodness, we needed it!!!

Star, congrats on the ec and awesome fert rate. Wahooo!!

Storm, my hearts been with you though the whole follicular phase ;-) So stink that you had to go thru so many stupid jabs to get that confirmation though. But yay for it finally coming and for the FET tmrw morning. Best of luck to you hun! I really feel like this may be the magic one for you.

BC, I am soooo glad that you haven't abandoned us. I reckon you are the glue that holds this forum together. You have an amazing way of supporting all of us and keeping the conversations light hearted, serious, empathetic, and positive. I am just as equally stoked that your are UTD!!!

HT, I feel ya with that pain, hun. I have wondered a bit if I need to be moving on from TTC and trying to get a life together outside of this world I've known for a while. I've contemplated leaving all my translocation support groups, but I haven't gotten there just yet. I am certain that there is a bigger and mightier plan than our own agendas and I know that your journey though all this will be used to make this world a better place. Though I lose site of that myself often, it's the only thing that keeps me realtively sane at the moment.

Hi Julian! Congrats on being PUPO (I think you are anyway... sorry if I'm wrong). And hi to everyone else I missed - I only went back about three pages. Man, this has been one busy forum!!!

Now as for us... we're STILL waiting for our PGD results. It's kind of making me a little crazy. No, a lot of crazy. I've had some huge anxiety issues (which I never got til IVF started) which has made dealing with this journey a bit more difficult than I had invisioned. Ages ago my doc said that I WOULD have a baby - that I couldn't keep having mc's and everyone in my sitiuation does eventually go on to have kids. And I believed him until about 3 weeks ago. I've lost so much hope and just feel like the universe is against my will. I read a quote a few weeks back that said something like "death of a person close to you isn't the hardest thing to deal with in life. Rather the death of something inside of you (like hope) while you have to continue living is much harder". I totally butchered that, but I think basic idea is still there and rings ever so true in my life. When my mum died two years ago it was tough. When I lost the 4 babies, it was tough. But losing hope of having kids has been much worse. Sorry to be a downer. I suppose that's kind of why I haven't posted... i didn't want to rain on the fanstatic parade of good news going through here. Big hugs to you all. xx

Doesn't look like that picture loaded - anyone know how to load a photo in here!

Awww HT and a.girl my heart aches a little for you both right now, reading that - I'm so sorry that you are both in a bit of a bad place with this all. Sending you both all my hugs and love - and remember we are all always here for you xx

Ht - never apologise for an emotion download on here. It's probably something you should do more often. I think we've all been round the block long enough to understand and know it's what you need is for at this time. And just because you've already got beautiful chn does not mean you're any less entitled to feel loss or grief at the thought of not adding to your family. It's only natural. Huge hugs - contemplating taking a step away from this fertility business flipping hard and I admire your strength.

Agirl - thanks for such kind words. I'm hugely sorry that your having a rough time of it too. Waiting for your results would be so frustrating I can imagine. As always we are hear to listen to your thoughts, fears whatever! I think you should be cheered by the fact that this time they've got something to test and I hope like crazy it comes back ok and you get to the next step.

Craftea - Hun sorry I don't know about photos sorry - just that they've always been a bit tricky on here.

Storm -big good lucks for today xxx May the horse shoe work its magic.

Hello and hugs to those I haven't mentioned. Enjoy your Saturday girls xx

Now that I've selfishly got my news out the way I've gone back and read the last few posts....

First off, good luck for today Storm!

HT - don't compare your TTC journey with anyone else's. Your emotions and grief are YOURS and they are just as real and valid as anyone else's no matter what they or you have gone through.

A.girl - sorry to hear you're going through such a tough time and still waiting to hear your results. You probably don't want to hear someone saying "don't lose hope" but I truly believe you shouldn't yet. If I understand correctly, your mc's have most likely been because of the chromosomal abnormality you carry? So you're doing what you can to address that and giving yourselves the best possible chance. But emotions are funny things and I know you can't necessarily reason your way out of them.

BC - I completely agree that you're not allowed to leave yet! You are such great support to us all.

And finally - no one should ever feel bad about emotionally downloading here. It's the one place where we all understand in a way others can't, we won't judge, and the anonymity means that we can share without having to "filter" out elements to protect ourselves and/or our listeners.

Edited by Roubaix - 21 November 2015 at 9:05am

Thanks ladies! Went easy peezy today except for the blimmin pressure on the full bladder with that scan thingee Embie looked good - although I wasn't convinced so of course have good imaged blastocysts haha

Blood test is 1st December! Gonna be the longest 10 days ever!! I weirdly now have slight cramps I'm trying not to worry myself that it's AF coming already crazyness!

Roubaix that sounds super promising! Is it bloods on Monday?