TTC for 12 months +

God sakes rung the hospital yesterday and they have no idea what I was talking about with this appointment that's been requested for me by FA.
Nothing on my file.
So she said she will get the doctors secretary to call me back today as it vaguely rings a bell with her.
I Hate the public health system no one seems interested in getting things moving even when they're aware this is holding up my ivf.
So fustrating!

FA sent the letter on the 11th August cos they sent me a copy too and they said to call the hospital at end of month if I hadn't gotten an appointment by then so I'm stuck in the middle really!

Wow a.girl sounds like you have had a lot to deal with and it keeps coming! I am glad that you now have some idea on what is happening with you to help settle things down for you. I do hope your FET goes well and that it works the way you want xxx keep popping in

A.girl! Sending you so much love right now hun!! Man you really have been through a lot. I really hope your little embryo is your shining light at the end of this tunnel. If your cycle has started how come your FET won't be for another 2 months?

Man, I was thinking last night about how this forum has dragged on (LOL) and it made me a little sad just thinking about everyone that has come and gone - with and without babies Often think how people like Epic, Shimma, Craftea etc are getting on and on the flip side so happy that some have made it out (hehe)Mrs I, Star, Pepi, Brownie! Maybe it's just my hormones and the realisation this month marks 5 years to when i had my first chemical Blah!!

Anyone had clomiphene prescribed by your GP? Wondering if I can get through my GP without being referred to fertility associates.

Hi girls.

Agirl good to hear from you but jeez yeah you have had some major stuff go on. I'm glad they've given you a diagnosis and you can start moving forward. Cool about the FET. I wish you all the best and hope this is the miracle baby - I don't know if you watched 'the' programme but there was that couple who's embie was like a 10% chance of doing anything and it turned into a real live baby.

Storm it's funny you mention things draaging on. This year was our 7th year of trying and is our last. We had 'that' conversation finally last night. Glad to get it all out on the table and no longer have this elephant in the room. DH has been feeling like he should set me 'free' so I can meet someone else and have the child I want. I told him in no uncertain terms that no baby was worth losing 12 years of relationship over and that I was ok with stopping....well that's abridged version of course. So we're not going through with the next ivf. We're stopping IVF . The end. He's open to foster care so I can live with that. If I'm honest I was relieved when I cancelled this cycle. Part of me wants to be pregnant badly but the other part is just so darn tired and over it that it's good to be able to finally look forward with a bit of clarity. I told him all wanted was to know where I stand so I can make my peace and find another focus for life.

As I said in an earlier post I so appreciate all the support and love I've receive during my time on here. I think of many of you as close friends and only want the best for you. I do have to wean myself off the thread though if I am truly able to start moving forward. I'm going to keep my account open so feel free to PM me with good news when you all get it please. No doubt I'll pop in for a wee lurk here and there.

Take care all, wishing you all the best xxxx

BC - I am sad to see you go (as you have been here the whole time I have been and have found you a major source of inspiration and help) but totally understand your decision. Those conversations with DH are so hard but I was the same when we had ours! I just wanted to know what direction we were taking so I could get on with other aspects of my life. I was shocked when DH said let's try one more time. Tbh some days I am yippee and other days I am like I can't be bothered which is terrible I know as I know if someone just turned up presented me with a baby I would be wrapped. Well I wish you and your DH all the best. Working in the field I do I can certainly tell you there are amazing kids out there that would truly welcome you as a foster mim

BC sad that you're leaving, but happy for your move forward xx (PM'd)

Sweetpea after my freeze all AF arrived probably about a week and a half after EC and was pretty normal, and my cycle went on to be the normal 33 days too. When is your AF due hun?

Seems to be a very heavy time for a lot of us. Sorry to hear about your struggles with appointments Faith, and all that's going on for you A.girl. Thanks for popping in to see us and I hope things get easier for your family.

I had a humongous cry the other night and was exhausted with sore eyes all the next day at work. Just feeling like a fool and a failure. Found out that we're due for IVF around about April next year. Hope that we don't need it but nice to know that it's not too too far away.

I have managed to stop taking my sleep 'helps': melatonin and 5htp. They've helped keep my fibro symptoms at bay for years but also give me dryness and lack of libido so hopefully that will help. I wonder if I should also ask the doc about Femara- our only success was with clomid but one in like 10 cycles wasn't good enough for them to have me continue with it. Miraculously I have been coping ok- hardly any pain even though it's winter. Sleep isn't coming easily but I'm napping as much as I can get away with.

Lastly, BC, I know I was gone for ages but you were one of the ones that I always thought about and came on here to check up on. I was so thrilled about your pregnancy and so devastated when things went wrong. And now devastated again that your journey has ended without a child. Hope that you will have a family in some way one day. Love you chick and take care x

Big hugs BC. I will be thinking of you. The relief of being able to get on with life is a real tangible thing.  

Edited by heavenly.talker - 26 August 2016 at 8:51pm