My whole family is ready for another baby. McKayla is walking in the house saying to me Make a baby NOW. Hubby is ready. And so am I.
What I dont think I am ready is the whole ttc thing. Not the actual deed. Duh. Love that.
Background info. I had miscarriages in the past. Had a threatened one with McKayla and lost a twin but we could save McKayla. All early miscarriages before 12 weeks. Started getting anxious to fall pregnant. Lots of depression and thinking it will never happen.
I really do love my life with my girl and think I can be happy just having her. But I know if I have another mc that I would want another baby. I am seriously nervous about waiting each month to see if period will show or not. Going off the pill with next period and then waiting a month. I have PCOS as well so dont know when my cycles will become normal.
GP over here said they can put me on Clomid. Never been on it as my gynae in SA refuse to put me on anything until we tried everything natural. DH is against me going on it as well and I want to at least have the option after a while.
I am seriously petrified of the waiting and then once you are pregnant for those first 3 months. What if I go on bedrest again? What does this do to McKayla? I dont really have any family over here to help out.
If you got this far thanks for reading.