It has been one of those days where everything is crap!!
Had fight with DH this morning because he got up an hour after me, i was doing the house work, he started doing dishes and i though "oh nice!" then 5 minutes later he says "right im off to dads now bub" and i said "WTF! what about the dishes!?" his reply "Well i filled the sink up for you..." ...me "EXCUSE ME!!??"..him "what!? your lucky i did that!" WTF!!!!!!

how lucky and cherished was i feeling at that moment!!!!

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anyway Astin has been a punk all day! and im trying to get an essay finished!
I feel crap from AF
then DH comes home at 4pm and says "dad just got the call so im off to auckland in an hour" i got angry because it was so inconvenient as now i have to find a way to get the boys to daycare for a few days, i wouldve liked to go, he needed alot of money to get there and i am now home alone with 2 boys trying to get this essay done!! and might i add that im sh*t scared of staying home by myself!!!....but i also feel stink because none of it can be helped - DHs father has been on the waiting list for brain surgery for a few months now so this is good and DH wants to be there to support his mum and bro and if something goes wrong

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Im going to give it a good go at staying home by myself but i can see that i may be trapsing across the road with my 2 boys in arms to my mummys house
how selfish and childish am i!!!!?