Jax......

Hey where are you girl???

Any body heard from her? has she had Erin???   

She's still pregnant....and baking up a storm.

Oh...and I got sooo excited!!! Never mind...rest up Jax....not long to go now!!

Boy oh Boy!! YOu should sit down and rest!!! Or are you well and truly stocking the pantry for the next few weeks in anticipation.
I only hope I have half as much OOOMPH as you when I am 40 weeks...if I make it there!

Yes ...this little girl needs to start coming out before her mother has enough food to open a shop!!!

Still here, ho hum.

Well, I'm not sure I *can* call them niggles really, I think the more I wonder and analyse the little things the more I will drive myself crazy. That said, the appointment with my physio was good, and now all I have to do is pass the time until my appointment with my midwife

Well, I hope she does too!

In a nutshell, my midwife is on leave from Friday. Her backup midwife cannot deliver at Birthcare. Should I go into labour naturally after Friday, that means labour and delivery at North Shore hospital and transferring to Birthcare.

Should I not go into labour naturally over the weekend, I will have to go in for a quick check up at the hospital anyway, and we are likely to book an induction for next Wednesday, and the only 'up' side to this being that my midwife should be back by then. She has said we would try and just break my waters first, but would otherwise need the drip. However, the syntocinon = no water birth, and I wouldn't even be able to get into the pool ! I could still transfer to Birthcare though, and it would mean sharing a room, we can't afford to pay especially for a private one.

I had a stretch and sweep at my appointment with my midwife today, and have my acupuncture visit tomorrow. The acupuncturist said we would be likely to have two treatments, the first being more of a preparation for labour, and then a follow up two days later with an actual 'induction' treatment. However, I am going to ask her if we can go the induction route tomorrow in any case, as it can take up to 48 hours to kick in, if at all.

So, in a nutshell, Jax = not happy.

When I picked Roland up from work and told him all of this he packed a sh*tty, so I packed a sad right back at him, and we drove home in utter silence - not fun. Fixed that up by cleaning the kitchen until it was spotless and vacuuming the whole house, and then having a good blub and cuddle (and a cup of raspberry leaf tea, just for the hell of it).

I want this baby OUT !


Edited to add: And what doesn't help is that on top of it all, I'm annoyed with myself for getting upset over this in the first place - Erin's wellbeing comes first, no matter what ! I can't control how / when I go into labour, not realistically, and I have always maintained I will just accept whatever happens. I think, no... I know I can still come to grips with this, I guess I am only human and struggle to deal with change like everyone else. Things will be fine. *breathes out*

Edited by jax

awwww poor you! So much stress in just one day!!!!
You know where I am if you need to chat (rant)

ohh jax its ok hunny i no how u feel i used to yell at my tummy "mummy wants to see you -i wanna see what you look like and oh hurry up and come out" and i went 10 days over lots of hurry up bubs dust coming your way hun