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Kelpa 
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 10:33am |
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Last night I lay awake for hours wondering how I am going to feel towards this number three......At the moment I feel horrible in saying but dont feel anything :o(
Totally adore the other two but just keep thinking have I got enough love for another one...
IT SOUNDS SO AWFUL....just cant get my head around it as never planned on having two let alone three :o(
Also getting really scared Paige is going to retaliate as already my time is cut with her because of Blake. Mark being away all the time doesnt help.
Oh and having major issues with going thru the birth again. I SOOOOO dont want to do it :o( Yuck.
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Kelpa
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 10:48am |
Maybe its my hormones! 
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 10:54am |
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i think its natural...
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 10:56am |
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Kelpa - I can honestly say I relate.
While I do have some lovin' for baby now, it took a long time to come!
I kept feeling guilt.
Guilt for my girls. Espeically DD#2... for getting pregnant so quickly again. When I was pregnant with Layla I felt terrible for Maddisyn. She had been my only girl for 5 years! How could I possibly have the same love for another? Then, Layla-Mei arrived, and I fell in love all over again.
This time I feel terrible again as Layla is still so young and SUCH a mummy's girl. I wonder how she is going to cope having to "share" me.
For a long time I too felt I didn't have enough love to share around, but now, seeing as Im so close, I'm getting more excited now and finally feeling some attachment to baby.
I know I will be head over heels the day he/she arrives just like before!
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 10:58am |
hey, i kind of have the same feelings although i think its just that i'm not ready for this baby just yet, to much to do. But for some reason i'm really grossed out about having to give birth, dont know why..... feel like i dont want anyone there with me (watching) 
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mum2emj
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 11:03am |
it is natural. its a horrible feeling to feel, but i felt it with my second pregnancy, and i must admit it took a while after em was born but about 5 hours after i was lying in bed holding her and looking at her and i felt so much love  i wish i hadnt of felt so awful about the pregnancy though.
i have similiar feelings towards this pregnancy too- sometimes i wish i wasnt pregnant etc... but i am sure that once the baby is born my feelings will change like they did with em
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 11:21am |
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Jodie - i felt the same about people watching, i had only planned for DF to be there, and to stay up by me. in the end my mum was there too and trust me, whike in labour its the last thing you think of!
Hugs to you kelpa!
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~ Mummy to a beautiful girl ~
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 7:06pm |
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When I first found out I was pregnant, everyone was so excited and happy and couldnt wait for the baby to arrive - and I was left sitting there going WTF I dont want a stupid baby. As time went on, those feelings didnt change, and I resigned myself to the fact that okay, im having a baby which will be loved regardless (the other half cant wait) and theres really not much I can do about it. I still have feelings of doubt - people still carry on about how excited they are etc, and even all you lovely ladies on here - yet I sit there and think 'Okay whatever.' and dont make a fuss. I think because i've had such a rough time (in my opinion anyway) with being so sick, my back getting worse where if i'd not got preg, i wouldnt have got chucked off the waiting list and I might have had my spinal fusion by now.. all of that crap. So dont worry, we all feel bla. I'm sure you'll be fine :)
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Posted: 06 March 2008 at 7:55pm |
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I soooo hear you! I have been much the same with this baby, it's only in the last week or so that I have really started getting excited. In the beginning when I had bleeding I felt awful for thinking that I almost *wanted* to miscarry coz I didn't want to be pregnant and I was sick of being sick all the time.
I worry too about not bonding with baby after all the trouble I had bonding with the gremlins, but at the end of the day, every experience is different and I won't truly know how I will react to baby till she is born.
As for having enough love to share around for three, trust me, you will! I sometimes worry that I love one more than the other but in truth I love them all differently, but equally as much.
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The Gremlins:Sienna Marie & Mercedes Kailah (14/10/06)
Lil miss:Chiara Louise Chloe (09/07/08)
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Random odd thoughts..Big BLAH!
