Wish me luck

I'm too aprehensive to do this for myself, so I'm hoping you will all do it for me

This morning, just after I woke up, I had light spotting. Very light, but it did look like spotting - pink spots in my CM (of which there seems to be a bit more than normal ...though that is likely to be my imagination - and bizzarly enough, I've had a non-cold-like slightly snotty nose for a few days. Very strange). It would be 8DPO for me. I know AF is due in a few days, but I just don't spot. I bleed. AF does feel imminent - I have niggly cramps and I feel like I'm about to start bleeding. I also don't really have anything else which may suggest ...you know ... My bra feels tight, but my boobs aren't sore to the same degree they were last month. I just get the odd 'stabbing' sensation in them really.

I know I shouldn't, but I can't help it ...the hoping. I mean, it is possible, isn't it? I might be. I just don't dare hope.

OK. That's my pre-AF ...goodness-knows-what ...away with the fairies moment?

I'll be back in 5 days give or take a couple to report that I have crashed and burned, and me and AF are catching up for a cup of tea! (Actually, that's the other thing ...I've gone off tea. I'm usually a big tea drinker, but feel the need for coffee. Pathetic coffee - less than 1/2 a teaspoon to 1/3 cup milk, 2/3 cup water ...but coffee nonetheless).

Right. Stop it, me!!

Everyone - have a good day ...and feel free to ignore my insanity based ramblings. I just needed to talk, and you guys are great listeners. I can't believe it'll be cycle 11 next month. I think that's the reason.

i remember the anxiety, can i be, do i dare think i might be... the frustration, wish i had had someone to talk to about it all instead of thinking i was going slighty mad all by myself.

Good luck, Simmone!

Hey Leish - I'm not entirely sure. I guess little bits of blood in your CM, or pinkish or brownish CM (feel free to correct me anyone else!!). I don't really know to be honest - I've never spotted before. (It's how 'they' describe it on the net though)

I just went to the loo first thing this morning, actually expecting AF because it felt like it was coming on, but (being gross here) when I wiped, nothing but CM and it had pink in it. So, that's spotting I guess. I'm not sure. It happened again the next time I went to the loo (have been going frequently just in case it happens again - my loo paper today I think has been the most closley examined loo paper in the history of the world! ) but there was just a trace, and now, nothing.

I don't know. I think this business is playing tricks with my imagination.

I'll blame PMT I think and I've loaded my bag with tampons (no delusions here! ...yeah right!) My boobs are also feeling like alien beings today, increasingly as the day goes on, though I could be imagining that as well

That's what friends are for, Simmone! And believe me, we'd tell you if you hadn't already realised the delusional nature of your rants (Just kidding )

All the very best Simonne - Fingers crossed.

Good luck with everything! I look forward to hearing the results!

Yer totally agree, the only time i had spotting was when i was pregnant but i dont wanna get your hopes up coz i know how horrid it is if they get dashed but i have everything crossed for you

Sounds like it could go either way but fingers crossed for you. I felt like I was getting my period this time round which is why I didnt think I was but look at me now! good luck

Hey Paws

Yep - I've started working on taking my mind off things There was a wee shopping incident at lunch time (I really shouldn't leave the office in my lunch break!) ...tomorrow I am off to the hairdressers to get my highlights done, then tomorrow afternoon Al and I are off to the movies and then going out for dinner. If that little lot doesn't take my mind off things (if only to worry about the visa bill at the end of it all!), then I don't know what will!