Very frustrated TTC Baby No 2

Hi Jules .

We're also TTC baby number 2 with no luck so far (been trying for 15 months now). I expected it to be much easier to conceive a second child - especially as I'd been on the Depo for years prior to TTC our first baby. He was conceived a year after my last Depo injection, which wasn't too bad considering it often takes two years for cycles to settle down again. Waiting a year was frustrating enough - but it seems much worse this time. Perhaps because I desparately wanted a small age gap between siblings, hoping they'd be best buddies with more in common. I've had to let go of that dream now, and just accept there will be a bigger age gap.  But its definitely hard to accept.

I'm trying not to think about TTC too much at the moment - definitely paying attention to my cycle so we don't miss any opportunities  - but just trying to be more positive whenever the dreaded Aunt comes visiting. I've recently been to see a naturopath and now I'm taking Vitex and a herbal mix to boost my fertility. They are slow acting (yet another frustration!) but as Treen says, it also helps me to remain positive.

For quite a few months there I felt a bit like I was putting my life on hold, as I expected to find out I was pregnant any minute. Now I've decided to just carry on regardless and make plans anyway. I didn't actually enjoy being pregnant most of the time anyway, so in the meantime I remind myself of the things I can still that I wouldn't be able to if I was pregnant. Gah, who am I kidding - I'd  to be pregnant.

Anyways, feel free to vent whenever - I hear ya!