Pregnancy Blues???

I get emotional ups and downs all the time, especially when another child makes me sleep-deprived or otherwise run down. Delve into the choc's, have a warm hug from DH (yesterday he was very intuitive - or maybe I was just reeeaaally bad ) ... usually I find that I pick up the next day.

Im sorry u feel so down!!! I remember it all to well

*Hugs*

heres something to cheer you up

Im pretty sure my meltdown the other day was to do with the preggy blues...Im so sick thorughout this pg that all i wanted was to have it over and have bubs here...and I am SOOOOO not like that normally....
I was sobbing to DH (who was away down south) that I hated being pregnant and i was never doing this ever again...oh and i think i sobbed something about how i should be glowing by now and I am not!!!

Thanks heaps. I think a bit of it is that I didn't want to be pregnant when I got pregnant (we had a one night wonder, no where near ovulation time and I still got pregnant) and I think I still have the moments of I don't want to be pregnant. I have a fear (and it is probably all in my head) that i'm not going to love this one as much as I love Andrew as he is my first and will always be my baby and then going back down the PND track. I know that as I got it with my first I have an increased chance of getting it this time as well and I don't want to.

I had a good cry to my friend today on the phone (while she was dealing with 3 kids at her place) and made me see some sense. I'm getting Andrew's profile book tomorrow from daycare so that will be something fun to read. I also think a little of it maybe because once again my roster at work has changed and now have to work every weekend morning. I have managed to work everything out so I finish work on xmas eve so having that xmas time with Andrew and DH will be nice. I think i'll also look at changing Andrew's hours at daycare and maybe have him home a bit more with me finishing work next year.

I'm keeping an eye on things and just have to watch it over the next few weeks with my exams - I know I can apply for impaired performance which I think I may have to do if it gets worse.

I hit rock bottom today, I don't think I could get any lower. After seeing my MW and finding out that things are ticking along nicely inside, Andrew decides to tip all the toys out of the basket there and after a few words he finally cleans them up (MW said he is one in a million as most of the kids that come in with mum flat out refuse to clean them up). Then in the car I get "hungry mummy" so I give him some food - which he was happy with and then we headed into town. Monster child as soon as we hit the shops. Andrew runs out of the shop, running down a busy street in Palmy and then stands at one of the mos busiest intersections in Palmy, the whole time thinking he was so funny he did it again. He lost Tigger and was very lucky that a woman had seen us with Tigger earlier and brought him into the shop. After that I had had enough and took him straight to the car when he decides to bring on the tears and "sore tummy". I lost it with him in the car, both of us crying, me yelling I had hit boiling point. I rang DH and he came home from work to deal with Andrew as I don't think I could have done it after the episode in town. DH came home and spend 2 hours with us which settled both me and Andrew down.

He is going back to daycare tomorrow, I don't think I could handle another day with him at home with me at this stage. I know he has been sick and I can understand that he wants cuddles kisses and i'm happy with that, but the 24/7 (well its not that bad as he sleeps nearly 14 hours a day) constant in my face demanding attention is just driving me nuts.

I am going to go into a pregnancy place in Palmy tomorrow to see if I can get some sort of help with myself. I don't feel like its the PND coming back but something in my mind is just not right with everything.

Are things starting to improve with Andrew, Becks? Things are so much tougher when they're sick , I think adding to it for me is that I can't really go out to a friend's place for support/company because I don't want their kids to get sick either

I went through times like that with studying when i was preg with Ayja, Becks, and PAris learnt very quickly that mummy couldn't run after her too so would do what Andrew did to you, she didn't like me much cos i then made a rule that she had to either be in a buggy or a trolley every shop we went to. it sucked.. but so did chasing her when i was tired and sore.. and looked a bit like a hippo crossed with a duck.. waddling after her... that and we got a leish.. just a wrist strap one, so i could attach it both our wrists.. and still hold her hand so it looked normal, but i knew if she amanged to break away it gave me a bit of warning and a chance to get her back beside me before she dissapeared completely.

I felt the same as well with worrying that i wouldn't love her .. but then i had a bit of a strained bond with PAris because of the PND and what happened when i had her so i was worried it would happen again.. only this time, I didn't get the PND, it all felt different, and i felt very very strong for Ayja pretty much staight away, the midwives would come to check me in the hospital and i'd be sitting there with a goofy grin on my face watching her. i felt sad then that i didn't feel that way for PAris for so long and i hate to say i still get a little more fuzzy when i am with Ayja than i sometimes do with Paris.. (doesn't help with the 3 yr old bossy tantrums she's had this week)

I spose, after this novel, I'm trying to say, hang in there, good on you for getting help and can relate to the not wanting to study... exams suck.