So over it.

I just want my body to realize there is no baby anymore and it needs to miscarry.
We've known since the second BT (4w3d) that things could go wrong. A week ago today at (7w3d) it was confirmed I was to MC. Now a week on and there is still no sign of it starting. It's starting to do my head in! I would prefer a natural MC, but I can't wait forever. My specialist has earmarked Friday next week to have misoprostol if it hasn't happened, so we do have a back up plan. I really don't want to have a D&C, and my specialist isn't keen on it either.
Is it seriously too much to ask for my body to release this pregnancy and then finally hold on the the next one when we put it back? So sick of going through all this and not getting a baby.

Oh Gapling, I have been thinking of you heaps. I too waited to go naturally but decided on the Misoprostol and I am so glad I did it. I can now have closure and start to look forward. I delivered the wee embryo first and then later came the sac and placenta. It was not plain sailing and was not nice, but out of the three options, it was the best way to preserve my uterus, my sanity and help the grieving process - got to see the embryo and say goodbye. I am always here if you want to PM me and find out more or just need someone to talk to. I have endo too. It sucks, but I find it better talking with other mummy's like us. Take Care and don't forget to PM me if you want.
Tania xx

Had misoprostol yesterday at 2pm. Just before 7 the bleeding started. May sound odd but I felt relieved that there was an end in sight. That I can start to move on knowing that I'm finally MCing. On Wednesday night I was away for work. I ran a bath in my hotel room and said goodbye to our bub and told it it was time to leave me, that it can't hold onto me anymore, that it needs to embrace the misop. Saying goodbye like that has me in a better place, although I did cry in the movie theatre toilets when I saw the first blood.
I'm now looking forward to spending a good number of months getting my body back into shape to be ready for when we do a frozen transfer. I think we are going to wait until well into next year before a FET as it's so emotionally taxing going through MC's.

Huge hugs to you Gapling & Blondes away