Ok. Fisrt up I am NOT pregnant, nor am I likely to be ever agian, and I'm good with that.
BUT something has been weighing on my mind alot over the last few weeks, and I'm sure its just because of the flood of emotions I got from my baby turning one and the realisation that there will be no more (and, once again, I am good with that).
On the day that I found out I was pregnant with Jake, I got my "period". I was booked in to see the Dr, as I had been very sick and peeing all the time, so I thought I had diabeties, lol. But somewhere in the back of my mind, I thought I might have been pregnant, so when I got my "period", although I didn't really want kids, it was a bit of a mixture of relief and dissapointment. On inspection of what seemed a very painful and clotty period (which I put down to it being sooo late) there was a big clot that looked like a tiny fetus, and I thought, oh, there goes my baby, and felt a little sad when I flushed (and it took ages for me to do that). I never thought about "saving" it to take to the Dr's for him to look at.
So anyway, I have another Dr that morning, as my own was off, and she did the whole could you be pregnant thing, and I said no I just got my period, so we did a test just in case, and of course it was +, so she said well, you are pregnant, but it looks likely that you are losing your baby. She was really lovely, organised some blood tests, made sure I was ok, and sent me home to rest. She rung that afternoon (a friday) and said my HCG's were very high, but I would need another blood test after the weekend to see what was happening, however the continuing m/s was a good sign.
So a nervous weekend and an early morning monday blood test, resulted in a lunch time phone call saying my levels were very low, and hadn't moved like she would have thought if I still had a live baby inside so she would send me for a scan since I was still very, very sick.
So the scan showed I was ten weeks pregnant with a healthy baby that would become Jake. The last contact I had with that Dr regarding that pregnancy was a letter I picked up from reception booking me into the hospital with a midwife.
So to get to the point, do you think, all you Oh Baby Dr's that that Jake was a twin? I always thought he was.
I just got to thinking, becasue of the high high HCG, which she said were "unusually high" that always stuck in my mind, then with them being very low again, and not moving like they would have if baby was still around..
Do you think there would be anything on my records that might indicate weather or not he was, with the levels doing those funny things in the beginning?
Hmmm. Not looking ofr symppathy or what ever, I'm not one of the woe is me I had a misscarrige types, and I don't mean that offensively, I'm just not that kind of girl. I got Jake out of it, so it had a happy ending, anyhow, I have just been wondering about it alot lately.
Sorry for the long post!
Edited by fattartsrock