Getting the snip

Dh is getting the snip tomorrow afternoon, and i cant wait.

Its strange really, for as long as i can remember i have always wanted lots of kids...you know 5 or more...lol

I love my 2 kids to bits, but the last 7mths have been such a struggle with Cory and his low weight gains and his allergies, and we have just started coming out the otherside of that.

I keep thinking that i should be feeling clucky or something when i hold someone elses newborn...but all i can think is thank god im not doing this again.

I have come to realise that as much as i have always wanted to be a stay at home mum and have always believed that i should stay at home at least until the youngest is 5yrs old...I am just not cut out for that , i want to go back to work (at least part time),

hmmm i dont even know the point of this post..hahahaha just me rambling again.

oh and hes getting it done through www.snip.co.nz and it done with a laser, no scapel involved and only takes 30mins.

i know how you feel. i do all the 'mum stuff' pool, library, stories, play time etc... but im dying to get back to uni. lol. these holidays are killing me. i find my brain needs stimulation and not just my body being busy if that makes sense. i dont get clucky or anything either if that helps and i love my boy to peices.