MENINGITIS....

Hehe I am the worlds worst flyer - and you'd think I'd get over it given how often I fly!

I remember the first time I flew with Maya she was 8 weeks old and I burst into tears during the safety demonstration coz I realised tha if we crashed, even if I survived, she didn't have a chance coz she couldn't swim/float etc.

She's used to me crying on planes now. The last flight we had back from Oz we had the worst turbulence I've ever been in (we flew thru the storm that caused the big power black out in Auck the next day and I was in tears, I had fully planned our funerals. Mind you, that day it was so bad I wasn't the only one - even the crew were nervous.

I check my kids all the time before bed. I also lie awake sometimes imagining up things that could happen and worrying about them. sometimes i will have already done the bed time check, but i worry in bed for so long that i have to get up and check them again, just in case. How sad.

K...Im starting to feel more normal bout how much I worry I watched this dvd few mths ago and the young girl falls in the sea off some huge rocks and her mum jumps in to try and find her but doesnt....got me thinking...imagine if both my kids fell in????how would I decide which one to try and save first???mental eh?but imagine it???you could put that into any kind of accident.......If I lost one of my kids Id really just not want to live...anyway as someone said you cant think like that you just have to appreciate them and enjoy life...hey Im going to write out a poem my dad had marked out in a book before her died...Ill do it as a new post...it fits our thing bout worrying.......