Tell me it gets easier

Today was my first day back at work after having 4 months off on maternity leave.

I was a total mess, sobbing whilst getting Caitlin dressed and giving her her morning bottle. Then pulled myself together enough to get myself dressed etc and everything sorted and in the car, Hubby said good bye to us and I lost it again... cried all the way to my Mum's house (took me ages to leave there), cried all the way to work... somehow managed to get through 8 hours of work without blubbing even though the guys kept saying "aww bet you miss her!" then got all emotional again when I went to pick her up!

I think it was a mix of being really tired (we had a bad night last night - waking up every 5 mins) and a wave of emotions that I had been repressing for ages trying not to get too upset about leaving her and spoiling our last full week together (even though we were both sick )

Anyways.. I know Caitlin is being very well looked after at her Nanny's. I have to remember that we're very lucky to have that opportunity *sniffle*

I can't say it got easier for me starting back at work. When I started work Andrew was 5 months old and at 6 months old I developed PND big time. I was lucky enough to be able to work part time to get it under control and slowly got myself back into fulltime work once her was 10 months old.

I'm doing 3 days a week (tuesday/wednesday/thursday) so at least I get 4 whole days with her.

My boss has been fantastic and said to me today that they are happy with me doing this for as long as I want as they appreciate that my "other job" is far more important


Becks - I think in the past 48 hours I have OD'd on Rescue Remedy . It's been a lot harder than I thought it would be, mostly because I know that financially we don't have a choice

ok - that's my grumble over for the evening, I'm off to raid the freezer for ice cream & choccy flake

Yeah it does get easier and I find it much easier when I leave the kids with thier nana. I hate leaving then when i get to work Im ok cos i have something to do but the drive to pick them up seems to take forever and i start getting anxious cos i want to see them. As hard as it is try not to dwell on it while you are at work. It might also be easier not working a full day until you are used to it if that is an option. But either way it does get easier, not nescessarly great but easier.

Awww chicka *big hugs* u will find it gets easier Its perfectly normal to be upset awwww spesh when Caitlins just so gosh darn cute!!!

Toni we thought we couldn't make it without me working part-time and that's what I did at first. But eventually we came to the conclusion that it was putting too much strain on our relationship, not just emotionally but the housework was getting a bit abandoned because of both our exhaustion. Hopefully you are able to find the best choice and make it work. I would have thought that 5 days part time would be easier than 3 full days but I don't know the nature of your work. and hope the nights get better.

I know exactly what you are going thru......it does get better. Like you I was lucky that my Aunt was looking after Zaara...but now I am soooooo worried again...Zaara is going to Day care from the end of November!

Like the others have said, it does get easier. When Maya first started daycare at 5 mths old i used to have visions of her dying of cot death or something equally terrible while I was away. But the older she got, the more I could see she enjoyed it, and now her behaviour goes downhill if she is AWAY from preschool for too long!

Oh Lu I sure hope so!!
She does not like strangers specially men and I am hoping that she will take to the care givers ....or else I am screwed (so to speak).

Harry was back at creche at 3mts and Alex 5mts and it was hard in the beginning but I found that it took so much concentration in the morning to get ready on time that I didn't focus so much on the emotional side. For me the hardest time was when Harry was about 2.5 years and got really upset everytime we left....that really upset me.

When I take Alex to creche (he's now 10 months) he gets so excited, his arms flap up and down...its really neat.