another rant in progress

aggghhhhh my familiy are driving me crazy, frst my sister is being a bic##. she is staying in a friends house while she is away for two months .now after we have spent 300 bucks on her sons 1st bday (which i didnt mind)n sted of her spending time with her son on his brithday she goes outside with her friends to get stoned .then she got on the piss and got her boyfriend to look after her son soo she could go out and this is not the frist time she has done this .she didnt even stay with her quest and arrgghhhhhhhhh run after her sacnky friends .she has been shipping hemi out to her friends and or boyfriend soo she can go and get drunk i am soo worried for hemi. just becaus me and her brothers grew up like that dos not mean she has to do that to hemi .and mum is stressing over her job my mum is a cleaner and work early mrons and afternoons now mum had a hreat attack not a year and a half ago and i worry about her every day. (i was there when she had it and took hjer to hospital aswell the only person i no who walks in to hospital after having a heart attack)i quess i,m scared of losing her shes the rock of our familiy and i would be churshed if she did pass away. and not helping that my father is a acloalolic who drinks every day and has a horrable temper. (not viloet) its like walking on egg shells .sometimes i just wish i had the money too move out and get me and my son our own place. oh and money it suxs big time all i want is to live nicley not rich not poor but just happy. i am going to study midwifey when james is 3 as i need to get my lreaning disability sorted frist . but i,m soooo annoyed with my familiy my life and ohh just everything i quess i am just annoyed that life is,nt being fair at the mo but i will battle on just like allways ahhhh that feals better (plase dont think agghhhrrr what a horrable famili cause were not its me and they are annoying me
























Edited by james

hugs james
dont worry i dont think your family is horrible every family has its "problems" (thats not the word im trying to think of... grr to my brain) anyway i have had problems with my family- and i think it really hurts and gets to us as much as it does because they ARE family and we love them to bits at the end of the day. my darling family over evrything else has been the biggest cause of my depression over the years but yet i love my family soo much, my parents are wonderful and i love my big sister... blah!

what im trying to say is its ok to feel how you are and we are here for vents, rants etc... it helps to talk to people rather than keep it bottled up.

thats really neat you want to study to be a midwife it would be such an amazingly rewarding job.

oh and yeah money is yuck. im also a person who doesnt want to be rich just enough to be happy in life is all i ever ask for.

liz-wow what a great thing your friend did! how inspirational that she couldn't read at 15 and is now qualified early cildhood teacher! that is so neat.

Aw I hope your sister grows up soon. I hate seeing young mums wasting that precious time with their children. She and Hemi are lucky they have you and your mum around.

I hope everything gets better soon

thanks guys it makes it soo much easer being albe to vent on here