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  | KiwiL   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Topic: Scared Posted: 30 October 2007 at 12:29pm
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   Well, I had my scan last week and it showed a blighted ovum (as you all probably know). I finally started bleeding today and I am really scared. 
 I remember what this week was like last time and I just really don't want to go through it again. The not knowing when I'll pass the clots is awful, and I have a funeral to go to on Saturday which is going to be really special and hard for me.... I'm worried that the worst might happen then. Last time, from the day I started bleeding, it took 5 days till I passed the clots, and Saturday is 5 days from today.    It's been 62 days since my last period started, so today would have been the day AF was due had I not got pregnant, so I am really just trying to tell myself it's just AF, it's just AF.... but I know what it's going to be like.
 I'm feeling really down about this, and about losing my friend. I kind of feel like I am in a big black hole at the moment. Sucks.    | 
 
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  | Bumble   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 30 October 2007 at 12:45pm | 
 
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  | Anna   Senior Member
 
   
 
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 30 October 2007 at 12:52pm | 
 
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   Laurie you poor thing.  Such a sad time, my only advice is too look after yourself extra well over in the times to come.  
 
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  | cuppatea   Senior Member
 
   
   
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  | james   Senior Member
 
   
   
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   awww hunn sending big hugs for you in this hard time   | 
 
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  | caraMel   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 30 October 2007 at 2:07pm | 
 
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   Very sorry Laurie,        from me too. 
 I hope that things aren't too rough on Saturday.
 Thinking of you xx
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  | susieq   Senior Member
 
   
   
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   Big hugs Laurie
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  | Maya   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 30 October 2007 at 6:42pm | 
 
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   Hugs Laurie! Would you consider having a d and c? Emotionally it might help you heal, it kind of makes it a more finite process, and it would help relieve some of your anxiety about Saturday.
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  | katie1   Senior Member
 
   
 
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 30 October 2007 at 8:09pm | 
 
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   Big hugs.  It isn't nice.  Be extra kind to yourself this week - lots of glossy magazines, time lying on the couch and chocolate!  Sending you a HUGE hug.
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  | minik8e   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 30 October 2007 at 8:58pm | 
 
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   Oh Laurie, I have no words to say what I want.  Huge      to you, take time just for you, look after yourself.  It's such a horrible feeling (understatement).
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  | KiwiL   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 31 October 2007 at 10:53am | 
 
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   Thanks everyone for all the hugs!
 Emma, I tried to arrange a D&C but the earliest they could do it would be Monday next week, which doesn't really help me at all.
 
 Guess I will just have to hope for the best! It's still really light, and brown spotting and hasn't become any heavier. Time will tell.
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  | tropics   Senior Member
 
   
   
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   hugs laurie thinking of you xoxx
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  | KiwiL   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 02 November 2007 at 1:18pm | 
 
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   Hey guys,
Thanks again for all the words of support.
 I went to hospital yesterday to have a D&C. Got there at 8am in the morning (having not eaten since dinner the night before) and waited there the whole darn day. They eventually sent me home at 8:30pm, having not had the procedure as too many more urgent cases came in. I was so starving and grumpy by the time I went home. Now there's  a day of my life I will never get back again! It was so boring.....
 Still scared of miscarrying tomorrow, but the bleeding is still really light so I am hoping it will hold off a bit longer.
 
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       All the best for tomorrow.
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  | emachan   Senior Member
 
   
   
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 |  Post Options  Thanks(0)  Quote  Reply  Posted: 02 November 2007 at 10:00pm | 
 
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   Oh Laurie - that totally sucks that they kept you waiting (and unable to eat) all day! I know how bad it was for me waiting from 8am til 2:30 when I finally got called in to start getting ready for the D&C then I remember how hungry I was after I came out of recovery.
 I hope that tomorrow goes well and the bleeding doesn't get too bad before MOnday - I started bleeding lightly on the Monday and didn't have D&C til the Friday.
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