I’m Worried..

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   So..

My history with PND is:

Went on meds (Aropax) with Ethan when he was a year old. (Should have gone on them sooner but didn't want to *admit* that I needed help)

Slowly progressed my way up dosages

I ended up on 2 tabs a day

Weaned myself off them Oct 2006 (Wow that long ago... I had forgotten..)

What worries me at the moment:

I have been exploding (and I mean *exploding*) over stupid things

Lots of tears and tantrums

I dont feel that I *like* this baby.  Actually I resent him.. I cant sleep, I'm sore, everything hurts and I am just plain OVER being pregnant.  I want this THING out.  

It scares me t refer to this baby as a "thing".

DH was p*ssing me off the other night and I could have quite happily stabbed him with a pen.  Irrational and disgusting, I know.  

I am worried..

How will I be when bubs is born?

Is this all just stupid pregnancy hormones mixed in with extreme tiredness and soreness??

Should I go onto anti d's as soon as bubss is born?? Or wait for the sh*t to hit the fan (if it does..??)

I was looking forward to meeting bubs a couple of weeks ago, but now I have no interest.. Just want this thing out.