Aww Shezzey, that is sooo sad, I hope you get a big surprise soon.
I know what your saying though, after nearly 7 years TTC sometimes I think I just want to move on and get on with my life, as hard as that can be to accept.
I think sometimes you do need to refocus and its great you can start to think "where to now".
I love your ticker - Against the odds but not giving up! - Sending you lots of

's, stay strong, I'll be thinking of you and praying for a miracle BFP for you soon