Oh man Im slack!
I do solomnly sp? swear, to do my very best to get in here each day!
And Im usually one for moaning about other people not logging in. It must have shown I logged in the other day coz its my homepage, so every time I open explorer, there you all are!
Yeah a bit bummed about the whole bfn, really thought I had it this time, but I suppose, there is always next time (keeps repeating to self, ad nauseum....) Haven't seen hide not hair of ole' AF, and actually getting pretty desperate now! Just want my old predictable cycle back, so we can get to baby making.
Im still staying at my sisters, so the dial up net is being shared between 3laptop users, plus another person that uses it too. so time to log on can be scarse. Plus you know sometimes you aren't really in the mood to share bad news when you were so sure your next post would be to tell all of you its a bfp.
But never mind, chin up and all that, sister has a new kitty so thats been fun preening over it. Plus we have 3 babies in the family at the moment, so its fun visiting them, if not a little painful that its not me and my baby they are visiting instead of the other way round. Plus I had a well meaning but oh so inappropriate comment from a family member, to the tune of 'oh man it must be hard coming here and seeing us with our two boys (2.5yrs, and a newborn) knowing you won't ever have them, I mean, the chances are pretty damn slim aren't they?' Farking WHAT! I mean, excuse me! There are right and wrong things you can say to an infertile, and that is most certainly NOT one of them. Man, I could have freakin damaged her when she said it. I mean, think it, but dont say it you harsh cruel little....
To make matters worse said person is now in a nut farm for a few days as she won't eat, but still insists on B/Fing her baby. Riiiiight.... Anywho, unacceptable comments aside...
Feeling pretty good on the whole, as long as I don't get too many more of those type of comments. Will take my meds when I get them (sending DF back to Dunners for a day or two to pick up some medical supplies and essentials) and will take them, get old AF showing her face, and get back on that predictable path of BDing with nothing to show for it.
The only thing making it hard now is visiting all the family and friends, and getting the 'So, when are you and Anthony going to start a family?' and feeling like saying, 'we're furking trying, if you've got any suggestions, Im all ears'
Ah well, we'll get there in the end, just more time to hone in the parenting and TOLERANCE skills.
My love to all, you all keep me sane, shudder to think where I'd be without OB.
Babydust to all, and hello to all the LimboLanders, I shall see you soon!