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mummyofprinces 
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Posted: 22 May 2008 at 8:18pm |
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Had a scan today 7w4d and there wasnt a heart beat, baby died 6w5d.
I am just lost. I didnt have any cramping, spotting.. nothing.
My preggy symptoms didnt get any worse, but they didnt get better either. I just cant think of any signs, we expected to see a little heart beating away... and nothing.
I dont how to feel, my baby is still inside me but I dont feel pregnant anymore (emotionally, physically I still feel pregnant).
Im so angry and confused and devestated.
Why????
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Posted: 22 May 2008 at 8:34pm |
Big hugs! I am so sorry for your loss 
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Posted: 22 May 2008 at 8:59pm |
I'm so sorry for your loss, take care of yourself 
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Posted: 22 May 2008 at 9:31pm |
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I'm really really sorry, I have been there and I know that lost feeling, and the anger too. I know its just not fair, please look after yourself and lean on people when you need to.
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Posted: 22 May 2008 at 9:56pm |
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Hey chicky - big hugs to you.
I also have been there, last April, but didn't find out until my 12w scan.
It will take time to get over, and you will probably cry many times, but things will get better. BIG HUGS, and if you ever need to chat, PM me!
emma xx
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Posted: 22 May 2008 at 10:13pm |
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I had a scan at 10 weeks only to be advised that the baby died at 6 or 7 weeks. Why can't your body start to pass it once it has died, why stay in your body for three extra weeks.
I think for me that there was something wrong which is why it didn't survive. I am ok with that. But you are right, you do feel lost. You have all these plans in place that you have to cancel. I use to love going on to the pregnancy area and talk to the others in the DEC thread...but now find that it isn't the same.
I've just come back from hospital today after a D & C (tried to pass it with drugs but it didn't work, in the end I just wanted it out of me). I want to go back to work, to normality, eat and drink what I want and come to terms with the MC.
Hugs Melnel
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 12:11am |
I'm so sorry Melnel  Huge hugs to you
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 9:25am |
thanks guys, everyone has been so supportive.
linda, i have an appointment today to decided what to do next. i am so confused, i would like it to pass naturally but at the same time its gone and i need to let go. I think if i hang around for another week or so with it inside I wont be able to grieve properly. I am with you about going to the preg thread. I dont want to remind them all what can go wrong. I will miss it. It will be you and me starting the April thread 
I cant believe this is happening. I wonder if they could have gotten it wrong, I saw it with my own eyes, I knew before they even told me. I just wish they were wrong.
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 9:34am |
melnel sadly i have been there too..i know how it is to think why me..the whole rest of my thread had happy healthy babies...and i just didnt get it..i was really angry for a while..and as i work with babies that made it worse...:( we found out at the 12 week scan too and i had no spotting or anything either..just know we are all here to talk to you if you want to ..or to listen to you vent..
as far as natural or not it had already been 5 weeks for me so i had a DandC but still had to wait 5 more days and then i could start my greiving:( !
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 9:41am |
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 11:34am |
Huge big hugs to you both, melnel and linda. It's simply not fair that either of you go through this. Never is.
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 1:02pm |
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Hey MelNel,
I had a missed misscarraige as well last week and it is really hard to deal with. I knew for about 10days that something wasn't right and when we went for our second scan there was no growth. I was really heart broken but as hard as i hoped i couldn't make it start growing again.
I opted for a D&C this past monday as i was on such a rollcoaster and i wanted off. My body wasn't showing any signs of letting go.
This past week i have had up and down days, yesterday was really hard when one of our good mates called up and asked if my belly was getting bigger... i jsut burst into tears. (the guy felt aweful!)
I think that you have to think on the good side, if you didn't lose this baby then you wouldn't have the one that you are getting for keeps in a few months and sometimes you have to lose something to fully appreciate what is coming next.
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 1:51pm |
I'm so sorry MelNel
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 2:47pm |
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Hugs, another person who has been there. It hurts more than you can ever expect for something so tiny and new.
I didn't need a D&C thankfully. Have you had hcg tests done. If they're declining at a reasonable rate you may not have the need for a D&C and bubs may pass on their own fairly soon. If they're staying fairly static you might want to book a D&C.
I totally understand the feeling of once your baby has died you want to be over it as quickly as possible.
Remember to take the time to grieve. It can feel like a lonely type of grief and that you're doing it all alone, but there are a huge number of women that have walked that same path so when you're feeling alone, remember that you're not alone and there is probably someone there willing and ready to reach out to you if only they knew.
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 6:26pm |
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Well I decided to go with a D&C. First thing Monday morning. I just want it over with, my body seems to have no idea whats going on. I wonder if a special cuddle would move things along, it always worked when AF was late.....
I had a horrible woman who barely even spoke to us. She had her last patients details on her computer screen and DH and I could read everything.
I felt like I had some contagious disease and if she too close she might catch it. She was awful, i think i might complain. I personally want someone who is caring and compassionate dealing me.
Scarecrowfarm, sadly I have a few friends, including my sister who have all suffered a loss. I know I am not alone.
Hannahbil, I know what you mean about wishing it will start growing again. I was in the bath last night begging for that little heart to start beating.
Enough wallowing for today,,, my eyes feel like they are on fire and super puffy and sensitive. I need to watch a good comedy.
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 6:30pm |
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 9:15pm |
aww hun i'm so sorry take care
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Posted: 23 May 2008 at 10:49pm |
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I think you have made a good decision re the D & C. The drugs didn't work for me (twice) and it just prolonged things and it was so messy. The nurses were great but I would say that the worse thing at Wgtn hospital is that you are in ward 14 and you are there with mothers who have just given birth. Now that was hard.
But yes, lets go for that April thread.
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