Not sure whats wrong (sorry venting)

The last couple of days ive been feeling a bit blue...(and im just wondering if its my depression kicking back in), i havent felt like this for well over 2 yrs...

i dont want to deal with anyone...or anything...i know that i have a lot going on in my head at the moment..

I know im stressed over ttc no 2...im thinking about going back to work in the evenings a couple of nights a week...just for some me time and some me money.

Im really really tired...which isnt helping...but the stupid doctor put my iron blood test on teh same form as my ovulation blood form...so i have to wait until my next cycle starts before i can get those done.

One of my friends and I had a huge huge fight on sunday...as she was telling me how to raise my daughter and how to deal with her being clingy...( when she doesnt have any kids of her own) and because she wouldnt listen to what i was saying and just wouldnt leave rhiannon alone when she was having a tantrum i bascially kicked her out...and her parting words to me were..."your child is giong to be screwed up because you are a bad mum"...i was like WTF...AND...I know im not a bad mum infact i think im a bloody great mum...but with everything else thats going on...arrggghhhh

anyway guys thanks for letting me vent...i actually feel heaps better...might have a chat with kent tonight and talk about going back to work for a little bit and see what he says....its either go back to work...or find something to do a couple of nights a week...so im outta the house

oh Kaz, big hugs, you know your always welcome to call me up for a vent or come over.
You are a good mum and your friend shouldnt be jumping at you like that when she hasnt got any kids of her own, sometimes its easier for some people to dish out advice without understanding.
going back to works some nights might be good for you, I know I would love to but will be a while yet before I can.
Im sure Kent will support you with whatever decision you make.

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a few hours a week would be nice i miss my independance, housework really gets to ya sometimes eh.

thanks guys...i am feeling much better....the past few days rhiannon has been really clingy and grizzly...but have just noticed that a molar is trying to make an appearance so tht explains that.

going out for a cuople of hours tonight to a friends...so that will be nice

oo that will be a nice break for you. I know it's really nice to get out of the house - by yourself - for a bit of sanity sometimes but if you're exhausted, are you really sure that work is the way to go? I find once I'm exhausted my life-outlook goes way down also. Not so much a depression thing but just a "woah everything's getting on top of me" for a couple of days.

Talking it out with Kent (and us ) will hopefully help improve things for ya too.

What a horrible "friend"!!! if it was me i certainly wouldnt be forgiving her anytime soon!!!!

I hope you feel better soon and have a great time at your friends

Big hugs and Im glad your feeling better. Great your getting out to night for some "you time".

I think you handled the phone call from "that friend" well. You stick to your guns. Your a great mum and you dont need busy bodies telling you otherwise!!!

Good on you for standing up to her! It's hard to do, but in the long run she will have more respect for you and will know that you wont put up with crap.
You're a great mum! What would she know anyway?? - she doesn't have any kids

i had thought about tht...but then it would cost me another $10 just to get that...just spent $70 at doctors and chemist..so will just wait.

Rhiannon is going to mums on friday morning and coming home saturday arvo...so apart from the wedding we are going to on friday night...just gonna sleep in on saturday.

Hey Emma...

a group of friends and I are thinking of doing pole dancing...and they have a studio right here in lower hutt...we are just plucking up the courage to go...hahahaha