Bingo! Maybe
I'm pretty sure she had two put back because of age.
topcat - I do understand what you mean. Infertility is a unique and painful journey - no infertile couple goes through the same thing, but it is always very, very hard.
One way I tried to help myself cope was to give myself 'happy credits' - I'd treat myself every day, even something as small as a hot chocolate before bed, or leaving the dishes ... but then again there was also the odd (
) new cardy and a lovely new handbag
It was such a silly thing, but giving myself goals and treats made some days easier, and gave me something to focus on. I went through a patch starting every day with a coffee and a melting moment (yes, at 8am!!) which was completely decadent, but it made me smile and feel really naughty, and it was such a positive way to start the day.
I'm excited for you looking into adoption - I do understand though that you'll need to see how you feel when you have more information. At least you have the ball rolling. DH and I talked about adoption, and we were much teh same - we agreed we'd look into it if need be, but neither of us could be sure that it would be right for us. There was an equally good chance that we'd just have our dogs.
Thank you so much for your kind thoughts about No. 9
It still honestly feels completely surreal - we thought we'd better start collecting things with the groceries to put away and yet when I got to the supermarket I pretended I was looking at something else on the shelf, grabbed the first thing I spotted (turned out to be butt balm
) and shoved it in the trolley under our other groceries
and I haven't been able to do it since.
Keep us posted on how things go for you, and don't give up. It's a really, really hard journey, and it winds in funny directions, but you never know how it will 'end' - life is a very strange beast.