Completely over everything (big rant!)

When do the dramas end, or at least end up not being so huge?

It's probably not even that bad, but I haven't caught a break in a year now, and I'm sick of it. Don't know what the hell I did to deserve this all.

So first, Jack got sick. In hospital 3 times over the first 6 months of this year and it was all pretty hard on us. Well he seems to be fine now.

Then I got pg - we were both really excited but I got quite sick while in hospital with Jack on top of ms. Then DH had a complete breakdown and ended our marriage via a 2min phonecall from Oz and I lost heaps more weight, had to go on sleeping pills, couldn't eat, sleep, function at all and had to take a month off work.

DH and I patched things up (well we're still trying) but he's been away on and off for a grand total of 6 months this year so we stil have 3 of our 6 free counselling sessions, which we started in June, to go and the guy seems to not be helping us at all, so we've been trying to do it ourselves to no avail and we can't afford any more sessions with anyone else when the free ones run out.

Our cars have both broken down costing us over a thousand dollars that we didn't have, now my car needs 2 new tyres to get a warrant (which I'd put money aside for) and today when I was finally getting out of the house to get Ava's hand and foot cast done the battery's dead. I have a feeling the car wouldn't start anyway as I was on the fuel light for so long but couldn't afford any petrol until pay day

Ava's a terrible baby, she's got reflux and just screams all day long. She's on meds which seem to work for all of a few days before she turns feral again. Because I have no patience Jack cops the brunt of everything, so his behaviours turned terrible too. I have had a constant migraine for weeks now, and can't take my normal meds until my haemoglobin levels return to normal, but can't take the strong iron pills because they mess with my IBS.

I hate being a SAHM, it's so damn boring and repetitive, I do work part time but I hate the job. I've been applying for full time teaching positions since I was 37 weeks pg with Ava but clearly noone wants to hire me, so I would get out and work if I could.

Grr I'm just over everything. And to make matters worse my MIL is moving over to Chch, which was supposed to be a good thing, but she's found a house about 500m away from us.

Anyone want to trade? Because I'm well and truly ready to pack it all in

Yup I know how your feel about the seemingly un-ending drama.

I had a miscarriage at 13 weeks and DP currently has family court proceedings underfoot with his ex which places a huge emotional and financial burden on our home. The daughter has major developmental issues which we've been slowly working through now that we've had a bit of increased contact with the child but it has been difficult and now the court looks to be cutting back DP's contact time. There have been numerous times where I've thought to myself 'why am I doing this?' I'm tired, stressed, putting on weight. And I suppose the answer is one awful day at a time.

Do you have any friends that could mind the kiddos so you could get a bit of time to yourself?

Have you talked to anyone? It sounds to me like you might be experiencing a bout of PND.

Big hugs Emz, feeling for you. Hope things get better soon.

Didn't want to read and run either...

wish I lived in Chch so I could come and help you out, after exams

Hang in there! I think 2009 was a sucky year for everyone! I know it was for me. Lets hope 2010 is better for all we're only 2mths away

let me know if i can help in any way!

we had the counselling sessions too and i think it's dependant on who does them really and they kinda need to be not so spaced out(not that you can do anything about that) ..

big hugs to you.. you have had a very crappy year and hopefully things get better soon..again pm me if you need any help!!

Yeah I don't think its PND, I've had both PND and depression, I think I'm just having a crappy time and feeling low, which I think 'normal' (ie, not prone to depression) people get as well lol

DH won't go to another person, it took enough to get him there in the first place that having to do the meet and greet and spill everything again would be too hard for him I think. We'll see. I don't even know if we'll bother at all really, and just try and do things on our own.

It's just one of those days where I wish we just had Jack because by himself he's so cool, and I wish I was working full time. I'm really not enjoying my new baby at all, all she does is feed, chuck, cry then scream. I think knowing its not normal baby behaviour is hard too, I know what a good baby is like. Although the mw and doc did say that because of all the stress I was under while pg with her, she's probably going to be highly strung as well as everything else for a while (oh joy).

And I'm so sick of my house being a tip because I'd rather spend my free time sleeping than cleaning up. Sorry for the rant, I had just hoped that life would be a bit better.

emz wrote: I'm really not enjoying my new baby at all, all she does is feed, chuck, cry then scream. I think knowing its not normal baby behaviour is hard too, I know what a good baby is like. Although the mw and doc did say that because of all the stress I was under while pg with her, she's probably going to be highly strung as well as everything else for a while (oh joy).

OMG i cant believe they said that, thats horrible and so not true!!!!! some babies just are more grumpy.

My first child was a piece of cake too. It wasnt till i had toby that i realised not all babies are so goood. He is contrary and was even as a baby, he was a bad sleeper, grumpy, wouldnt latch on at 3am - i think the record was 3 hours once... he was just a horrible baby - i remember telling my SIL he was a little sh*t and she could have him..she was horrified but i wasnt kidding.

i think you shold finish the counselling anyway, its free and what have you got to lose... other than that try to take it easy on yourself, things will change - i know this cause they always do! hang in there!