No sperm :(

Oh hugs bat!!!! I have so been where you have hun and it is a very hard pill to swallow. You definitely need to take time to grieve about it before thinking about your next steps.
If you have any questions about it all please ask away - I'm always happy to share as found it very helpful finding the rare people who have been through the same thing. Some counselling through fertility associates (or your specialist) might help you get your head around things.

AFM - just approaching first FET next week. Freaking the heck out!

Fertility associates has really good people as part of their clinic. They are amazing. You have to have 2 sessions as part of the donor process. We paid private for our initial appts with FA then got public funding for treatment.
Honestly I never thought we'd be using a donor. I try not to over think the situation too much. What helped me put it into perspective was when the counsellor talked about blended families and I thought about the amount of kids I teach who have a father who is not biological through relationship changes etc then I heard Nathan makaere wallis talk about the brain and how babies are only born with 30% of their genetics pre-programmed (or something like that). Just my perspective anyway.

As for my transfer. No meds as I do a natural cycle where they track ovulation with bloods and a scan (I have my scan and blood tomorrow) then 5 days later transfer the goods and off I go to freak out for a week or so lol!

Oh jacq that sucks big time! It's so frustrating to get so many eggs but then nothing left at the end. And all those announcements aren't easy to handle either. Hugs hun.
What's the next step for you? Or is it too soon to think about that?

Exciting! That would put a smile on my face too. When is the wedding booked for?
At least it's a nice distraction for the moment.
Had more bloods today and now have bloods tomorrow and another scan. Hard when I live 2hrs from scanning place - trying to decide if I ask for a full day off work or just the morning. I'm a teacher so it's a bit trickier taking time off.

It is really hard work this time round I think because I'm in a new job and my dh is away working so it's just me. Work is amazing. Since I can't book the scan till basically I get to the city to do my bloods I'll probably end up taking the day. Thankfully there are no more scans and it's looking likely my transfer will be next weekend so this should be the last day off work.
November will totally arrive fast! Yay for picking a dress too. Which FA are you with? (Sorry can't remember) will the wait be long to try again?

Oh that's right thought it was welly like me. I get the feeling it's not as long down there as in other places. I got told 8mths when we found out but then it wasn't even that because we'd already had iui so it just carried on from that no waiting needed. Waiting does suck though. I was thinking that while I waited for bloods - always waiting lol. And I felt bad for the girls sitting there going through the same stuff yet no one spoke a word to each other despite all being there for the same thing.
No dh won't be back for at least 6 more weeks. He's working away down sth then possibly on to Aussie. Has had a couple bad seasons work wise (he's an ag contractor) so is trying to get ahead. It's hard but he's so dedicated to getting the mortgage paid off and has worked hard over to get it within 2 yrs of being paid I just have to put my big girl pants on and deal with it.

Ugh I so know what you mean about life being on hold. I lived a little last year with a holiday and new car. Good on you bat it is a little liberating doing stuff like that.

Isn't it werid about no one talking to each other though? When we were in reception waiting for egg retrieval I heard a women whisper to her husband- oh why would they be here they don't look old enough to have a baby. I actually felt like exploding.

Oh some people can say such stupid things Jacq. I am actually worried what stupid things people will say to our baby (which will happen!) about needing a sperm donor.
I think it will be two ish years because we are now going to wait for a public appointment which will probably be months, then the wait for a sperm donor which is also months and then 9 months before the baby arrives.
We are going to Samoa in a few weeks which I am so excited about and then we are going to the Gold Coast later in the year so very lucky. Wanting to do Europe next year but not sure about it yet. My great plan was to do it when the kids are older but now my oldest will probably be ten at least by the time this baby comes so it will be a long time before we manage Europe if we wait for them to leave home. If not Europe then maybe the states with the kids. I should be using the money to pay off our mortgage but meh, you have to live as well.

Good on you bat!!! The donor wait is about 6mths so not long really in the grand scheme of things.
It's so awesome you've got so much planned.
And to anyone who says stupid stuff about babies conceived via donor just need to take a look around them and they'll see plenty of 'donor' created children - there are so many families where one of the couple is raising children that genetically aren't linked to them. Lol can you tell I'm passionate?
My worry is more telling my child they're donor created. I think it'll just have to be a story we tell from day dot.