worst mother award goes to...

Big hugs Liz - can't say much cos i'm just as 'blonde' but please don't beat yourself up about it, fear and panic hit you at times like these, and theres nothing you can do - after Ayja fell at 6 days old, i grabbed her pretty much as she hit the floor i think - but then sat on our bed, staring into space, just cuddling and holding her, in a state of shock for at least 2 - 3 minutes before i thought "oh crap!!!!' and started shaking and sobbing uncontrollably, and woke everyone up. It is a normal thing to freeze.

And the flashbacks possibly never completely go away - but get less frequent - every time i closed my eyes for a while i would get them, see Ayja on the ground, and after last week i got them again, and still get them. It is something that stays with you i think, just another scar of motherhood. hang in there.

Aw Liz, you are a fantastic Mum! Even I wouldn't mind you as my own! (If I were say 20 years younger).

I had a similar moment when Hannah choked on a bit of persimmon as we were in the supermarket aisle and she was in her buggy. I didn't notice and it wasn't until a guy ran over from the next aisle that I realised. Felt soooo terrible. Lucky he saw or she might have choked seriously.

Good to hear Jake is fine. It's all a bit of preparation for the many time he'll get himself into those type of situations over the next year or two! I'm sure next time you'll know exactly how to react.

Hey, you shoosh... she loves it!!

jake pallette is limited to nectarines at the moment...although mum reckons he's "off" nectarines and onto peaches