CS flashbacks

After I had Caitlin (emergency CS) I was fine with the fact that I didn't get the labour I was expecting (Mum had me and my sis in an hour and didn't get any contractions!) and kept reminding myself that it's not important how she arrived, just that she is safe and healthy etc.

Now, four months later I keep having dreams where I relive parts of the labour, but just the scary bits. Like when my MW told me to get out of the birthing pool as baby was distressed and passing meconium, and when I was back in the birthing suite and lost all of my breath and couldn't push and also the terrified look on DH's face when they said I needed an emergency CS "right now!"

It has obviously effected me more than I had let myself believe.

Also, I went to the Chiro earlier this week and she found that I have a deformed pelvis and that would have probably been the main reason why Caitlin got stuck. So, I will probably need another CS next time (MW said the same re. non-progressing 2nd stage of labour).

Thanks for listening - just wanted to get this off my chest.

Sounds like there were some really traumatic & scary parts to your labour, Toni - and that stuff can sometimes come back to bite you in the bum later on (long after you think you're 'over it').  If the dreams get on top of you and start ruining your sleep or haunting you when you're awake, a couple of visits to a counsellor might help.  Amazing how they can get you talking through a past trauma and you come away feeling like a weight's been lifted.  And sometimes it's great to have someone acknowledge how hard what you went through was.  Either way, hope you get some decent sleeps without dreams like that anymore.