My beautiful friend & her beautiful baby

I did forget to leave a big chunk of Fleur and Mark's story out.
This is Fleur's second loss of a child at a similar age. Her first son Camden was born last year in July at 20w1d. This is how they discovered she had an incompetant cervix. It should have been picked up at the anatomy scan but the sonographer didn't look properly.
Camden was a natural conception as Fleur had just come off fertility drugs for IVF, Keegan was an IVF baby.
This is her husbands third loss as he had a baby in a previous relationship but there was some serious problem with the child at the anatomy scan and they chose to terminate the pregnancy.
Today I have chatted with my friend, my lovely, lovely friend via txt. She is looking forward to having some ham rolls and perked coffee for lunch. I can't imagine how she must feel today, waking up recalling the horrors of the day before and having to go home childless.
I myself, even though I feel raw and emotional today know that in my wildest dreams, everything I bore witness to is a meagre last place to how Fleur and Mark are.
Thanks for your well wishes, time to go have another hug with my precious daughter.

Oh Sara, that's all so heartbreaking.  I agree that you were meant to go there that day.  I don't have the words to convey my sympathies to Fleur and Mark because I can't imagine how painful it's been for them.  But many hugs and prayers go out to them both, and to you.  And you described their baby so beautifully - he sounds like an angel.   

that's so incredibly sad! it just seems so unfair for a couple that have been through so much already to have to go through it all again. my heart just goes out to them.
you described keegan so perfectly, he sounds beautiful.

I am so sad reading that. I know no words I can say will be able to make her feel better and dont really know what to say.

Just that I will sent up a prayer tonight for them.

OK, I'm back and my head has cleared a little. I had the privilege of briefly getting to know Fleur on the Lost Ones site (www.lostones.co.nz) where she shared the birth story of her precious wee Camden. So hearing that Fleur and Mark have experienced another shocking and tragic loss left me a bit lost for words (trust me, that doesn't happen very often!).

Sara, I am thinking of you as you try to make sense of this in your own head. And Fleur and Mark and their beautiful angel sons will be in my thoughts also over these next difficult few days and weeks for them. For what it's worth these two little men were and are loved too much for words by so many people, and I know that the rest of our Lost Ones family are thinking of them also.

i have read this a fe times now and gone to reply but haven't found words to express how sorry I am for your friends loss, and for you too Sara - as going through that with someone must be tough too. decided to just write and I know that you will read this, but hopefully you can read between the lines and see the heartfelt emotion.....enough babbling.

All i can say is im so so sorry! I cant imagine a lost like this, and have two (and three) is just terrible. My thoughts go out to Fluer and Mark and you Sara