How is everyone coping?

Yeah I am mostly ok.

I did try meds again, but the one's they put me on did not gel well with me and made me like a zombie and always sick.

My anxiety is all good for the most part. My moods tend to go downhill when I have AF approaching.

But mostly I'm doing ok.

Can't find anyone to look after Annabelle. Or else I would go to counselling.

I was on Escitalopram(loxalate) But not anything now.

Yeah, winz may help. Not sure. Due to DF working full-time. Unsure of my entitlement.

I've heard good things about 5-htp from when I was in a PND group. So I assume it is quite good. I just can't afford it myself.

And yeah, some doctors are pretty shocking with how readily they hand out meds.

Edited by escadachic

I usually take 30 Plus tablets. But have run out.

mummyslittlewhirlwind wrote: I ask myself have I looked for conflict, am I a target for conflict or am I just extra sensitive to hurt and rejection? I'm finding it really hard not having anyone to talk to about this stuff except my counsellor so I thought I'd seek out some people who might understand

Welcome mummyslittlewhirlwind.

To answer that question, no I don't feel you are looking for conflict. I find when we are going through depression and other such things that are wearing us down, we do become extra sensitive and do feel hurt more easily.

I can relate to the feeling alone and isolated. None of my family live anywhere near me and I found that was part of why I developed PND, among other things. Like I had some sh*t things happen to me while pregnant too. And when you don't feel you can really honesty talk to anyone, who is considered a good friend and someone who 'gets' it, that is SO hard.

I'm here for you if you ever want to chat and you are welcome to P.M me too. Also, we have a private group on Facebook if you want to share more privately.

You are welcome to read my blog, which is here My Blog

As I went through a pretty crappy time and used to think I was the only one feel that way, but through sharing my feelings and such in my blog, I came to discover others felt that way too.

I still go through periods of depression too. Thanks for sharing. That's really good that you can do that. It does help to get it off your chest I find.

I'll private message you the link.

How weird! The link doesn't work either!

That's strange. What's actual name of it?

mummyslittlewhirlwind - Looks like due to the privacy settings you need to be added as my friend, so I can add you to the group.

Trying searching for me on FB. Kelly Parker. I'm in Wellington and I have short blonde hair in my profile picture.

Good on you for sharing Mummyslittlewhilrwind

It is nice to get it off your chest. And yeah I know what you mean about hiding these feelings from everyone. I usually only admit to those feeling after I have calmed down. Never when they are happening. It's like I just can't bring myself to admit it or share it, because I'm so emotionally fragile.

I hope they can find a more suitable medication for you. I don't even bother with anti-depressants anymore. As I got sick of not being offered other options. Got really annoyed with doctors always offering my one's I had been on before and that didn't gel well with me. It's like, man, do you not read your patient notes?!

It is hard not having an anti-depressant to suit. So I just have to deal with the depressive periods and hope like hell they hurry up and pass. I only take 30 Plus tablets. Which at least for me is better then nothing at all.

It's really good that you reached out to your counsellor at least. That is something to be proud of.

Yeah stress for sure does make things spiral out of control. Over time, you will improve. But I can't tell you when. But it does get easier to cope, with practise and learning new strategies. And yes, even when you are significantly better, you will likely still have periods of depression, but you will be able to get through them faster.

I used to think, there was a fix for depression and that it could be cured. But I have come to realize, that it will come and go, but that is normal. As, even people who are not suffering from mental health issues, have periods of depression.

Do whatever you can to look after yourself. Even if that's just a nice bath or reading. And if you can have some time away from your child, do when it's possible. As being a Mum is a 24/7 job and it never ends. But when you get somewhat of a break, it is refreshing. It's called self-care and it's essential.

Have you tried using magnesium powder to aid sleep,...I found it really really really useful even when my depression/anxiety was at its worse. I hope u get sleep soon.