Hi all. Well today has been a better day. This morning Spencer actually brought Alex in to me at 5am because he woke up. So I was able to give him cuddles & fall back asleep. Feeling alot better after a good sleep.
Also we went out with Spencer on the tractor for about 1/2 an hour for some fresh air. I wish I had got a pic of Alex wearing a huge pair of earmuffs on the tractor! Too cute
I'm not worried about milking cows, maybe I'm mental but I enjoy it most of the time. When I was pregnant with Alex I milked everyday right up until my due date so its been weird only milking once every couple of weeks.
I sat down with Spencer last night after Alex was in bed & had a good chat. He reckons I just seem to cope so well it never really occurred to him I need help and even when I asked for help he didn't think it was such a big deal. I guess its really my own fault for letting it be so easy for him....He made the point that he only really gets 3 days off a month which he spends with me so when he goes for rides on weekends after work its "his" time.......I just about bit his head off at that though coz where is my time off??????? Usually if I go out its with Alex in tow. He wants to go to Oz for 4 days at the end of this month to see his best mate, and I'm freaking out about it. Moneywise its a little bit tight (his fault for spending so much money on his bike!) and it will be 4 weeks before I'm due or 2 weeks if I have an elective C/S. Maybe not such a big deal but since anyone I can call if something happens is a good 2 hours away it makes me a little nervous.
Sorry I'm really good at the novels lately, nothing really seems sorted & I'm not sure how to make a compromise.