big stuff

well. have just rung hubby at work and asked him to come home straight after work. i feel a bit guilty as now he is going to worry. i think tonight we may be over. confession time: I found out he cheated. Ages ago. (and I found out in january)   But when we were together and I was pregnant. we were in japan at the time. the girl he cheated with is still a good friend of his. Anyway, i read his email and it basically was her talking about how she stil misses and loves him. Previously I had said that they could remain friends and I would be okay about it (i figured she's in japan and can't come to visit so no problem), well, it's a problem. i feel like it's rubbing it in my face and I can't cope. so tonight I'm saying stop being friends with her, or we are through. I guess the reason I am writing this here is that i don't want to wuss out. and I know I am fully capable. i wrote a letter outlining everything, but when I rang, my heart melted. (hence me writing the letter - i know me well). before I felt like
I had no feeling about it all and would be quite matter-of-fact. now not sure. poor kids are eating in front of the tv, and now I just sit and wait for him to come home and my life to change or not.

heres the thing though ladies - i am only telling you guys - as in, have not told anyone else at all - cause i know that you won't judge me whatever decision I make. If I told any of my family, or his in fact, they would be so angry and I would never be able to work things out, if thats what we decide. So I would really appreciate support here, not necessarily people suggesting what i should do.

nothing to say but hope it goes whichever way is best for you and the kids. not a nice situation to be in.
Hugs, be strong. will be thinking of you.

Lizzle.. I feel for you, i know from too much experience how it can feel.. Big Hugz to you have your family

I guess you're probably talking things over right now, I'm thinking of ya because that's very big stuff as you said. I guess it mostly depends on his feelings towards her, you know her feelings towards him but not necessarily the reverse. Let us know how it goes.

Thinking of you Liz, hope the talk goes well. I think your ultimatum is only fair given the situation. Big hugs!
BTW, you did well keeping that one from us, we are a pretty nosey bunch!

Best wishes for you.

Hope it all turns out as you'd like it to

Have you guys been able to talk yet?

not yet talked. hubby works in a bar so late nights are the one at the mo. So probably no chat til 11. so i can sit...and think and overthink and overthink. lovely. my plans are to ignore all the mess in the house (and believe me, there is a lot), shower and live in my bed with the electric blanket on.

im so sad that youve been carrying that around yourself chick, i wish there was some way we could make this easier for you

I guess all we can do is be here when and if you want to talk and send you lots of and love.

Hope the talk goes well, will be thinking of you