Im going crazy..

I read a quote once ,
"to become a parent is to forever have your heart outside your body "
in other words, being a parent is the most rewarding thing you can do , its also the most scary .
You are responsible for another life , until the day you die , there isn't anything more scary , yet more rewarding , than that.

Caitlyn is 6 and a half and I still wake up in the night to check on her, I still have nightmares where something has happened to her , I imagine I always will fear for her , no matter how old she is , not to the point where shes wrapped in cotton wool , but I will always fear the worst , rather than expect the best.
Your completly normal .

As for her birth, while I can imagine that would have been very very distressing , If there was any long term brain damage, it would have presented its self in more ways than not walking,im sure, my sister is special needs and there were a lot more ways to show she was not "right" than her lateness walking and talking .
Sounds like you have a cruisy daughter, thats enjoying taking her time to take in her world, too much emphasis is put on when children should do this and that, and unfortunately mothers can be very .....competitive, which doesnt help. I didn't walk til 14 months, DF walked at 10 months, but who is always right huh ?

As everyone said its normal to worry. I also think of every possible terrible thing that could happen, I think its worrying that makes you a great mother.

That is shocking care at the hospital, in my course last year one of the midwives told us there are a few midwives around who aren't comfortable with birth and are only in it for the money. Not really the job to be in for the money

Anyway a lot of babies stop breathing at birth and they all end up fine as someone said you would know by now if something was wrong.

My Niece and 2 of my nephews were closer to a year before they started crawling. I think it's only natural for a parent to worry though. Must have been very traumatic

I know EXACTLY what you mean...so much so that I have just finished writing a brith plan for this one and have specifically mentioned what went wrong last time and how I want to avoid that happening again.

Thanks for the support though ladies, i cant talk to DF about it as he just doesnt quite understand it. As far as hes concerned we got a daughter lol, shes here and happy haha.

Talking to someone about this doesn't mean you're crazy hun, it just means that you realise the issue getting int he way of your life and you want to feel better and you need to do that for yourself and your little girl. Maybe go and see your GP and they can point you in the right direction, there's no shame in wanting some help to feel better and get control over your anxieties. You did the first step by posting on here as it's hard to admit when we're not feeling 100%.

I had an emergency section with DD and like you feel completely ripped off that I couldn't experience child birth like it's suppose to be, it still bothers me now and i'm starting to get nervous about this next birth as i'm hoping it will all go well. But i'm staying positive